//108.
today consisted of:
+ waking up at a decent hour.
+ taking my birth control on time.
+ making trix dinner with briana.
+ briana taking me out to dinner.
+ my boyfriend calling/texting me the cutest things ever.
+ coffee and cuddle time with briana on the roof.
+ teaching briana how to knit.
+ talking to ashley kay from boarding school for two hours.
+ my parents coming home!
today was fabulous.
it's good to know i'm not the only one that absolutely loathes hillcrest. yeah, the two years i spent there were pretty amazing, but once you leave, you realize how shitty it is. i talked to ashley kay tonight, someone i went to boarding school with. we didn't hang out much really, but we had mutual friends. it was really good to know that i wasn't the only one that loathed how cliquey and ridiculous that place was. we both pretty much said how we felt like we never really fit in, yeah we were both friends with everyone, but we didn't realize how uncomfortable we had both felt while we were there. and how going back there in may, was pretty much the worst idea ever. you don't belong there, unless you fit in. i guess i could've had the chance to fit in, if i went out with brock, co-captain of the football team, but sorry i don't date asians, and i definitely wasn't feeling it. and when all the girls tried to make me like him, and i refused to have anything more to do with him than a friendship, i basically got booted out of "the group." it's funny, how everyone is supposed to fit in at a christian school, meanwhile if your parents aren't rich and donate thousands of dollars to the school, you're not blonde, and you're not wearing abercrombie and fitch, holliste and super expensive designer shit, then really there's no way in hell you're going to fit in.
i can't say that i didn't enjoy it, because i spent two of the best years there, mostly in the dorms late at night, tossing kelsey half way out the window of the third floor with a laundry basket attached to ten bed sheets to get pizza, or making the third floor into a slip and slide, or shower dance parties, or going up onto the roof in our bra and undies to sign our names on the steeple in the dead of winter, or sneaking out to mock the guys' boxer run running around their dorm singing feliz navidad, or a bunch of other shit.
and now that we're out of hillcrest, if you didn't belong to "the group" no one even bothers to keep in contact with you. shits fucked up, but i like my life better now- cursing, sleeping in late, somewhat living with my boyfriend, having sex, getting drunk sometimes, smoking cigarettes (not anymore), fucking living life.
i'm not really sure why i wrote all of that, probably just so when i look back on old entries, i can remember how much i hate that place and will probably never go back, unless i have something to show off, just to be like "see what happens when you live life? good shit happens to you. PS- try having sex, its fucking amazing. oh and basically you're all hypocritical assholes and i'm doing better than you ever will. see you in hell!"
+ waking up at a decent hour.
+ taking my birth control on time.
+ making trix dinner with briana.
+ briana taking me out to dinner.
+ my boyfriend calling/texting me the cutest things ever.
+ coffee and cuddle time with briana on the roof.
+ teaching briana how to knit.
+ talking to ashley kay from boarding school for two hours.
+ my parents coming home!
today was fabulous.
it's good to know i'm not the only one that absolutely loathes hillcrest. yeah, the two years i spent there were pretty amazing, but once you leave, you realize how shitty it is. i talked to ashley kay tonight, someone i went to boarding school with. we didn't hang out much really, but we had mutual friends. it was really good to know that i wasn't the only one that loathed how cliquey and ridiculous that place was. we both pretty much said how we felt like we never really fit in, yeah we were both friends with everyone, but we didn't realize how uncomfortable we had both felt while we were there. and how going back there in may, was pretty much the worst idea ever. you don't belong there, unless you fit in. i guess i could've had the chance to fit in, if i went out with brock, co-captain of the football team, but sorry i don't date asians, and i definitely wasn't feeling it. and when all the girls tried to make me like him, and i refused to have anything more to do with him than a friendship, i basically got booted out of "the group." it's funny, how everyone is supposed to fit in at a christian school, meanwhile if your parents aren't rich and donate thousands of dollars to the school, you're not blonde, and you're not wearing abercrombie and fitch, holliste and super expensive designer shit, then really there's no way in hell you're going to fit in.
i can't say that i didn't enjoy it, because i spent two of the best years there, mostly in the dorms late at night, tossing kelsey half way out the window of the third floor with a laundry basket attached to ten bed sheets to get pizza, or making the third floor into a slip and slide, or shower dance parties, or going up onto the roof in our bra and undies to sign our names on the steeple in the dead of winter, or sneaking out to mock the guys' boxer run running around their dorm singing feliz navidad, or a bunch of other shit.
and now that we're out of hillcrest, if you didn't belong to "the group" no one even bothers to keep in contact with you. shits fucked up, but i like my life better now- cursing, sleeping in late, somewhat living with my boyfriend, having sex, getting drunk sometimes, smoking cigarettes (not anymore), fucking living life.
i'm not really sure why i wrote all of that, probably just so when i look back on old entries, i can remember how much i hate that place and will probably never go back, unless i have something to show off, just to be like "see what happens when you live life? good shit happens to you. PS- try having sex, its fucking amazing. oh and basically you're all hypocritical assholes and i'm doing better than you ever will. see you in hell!"