//107.
i did something productive today, thank fuck. i still need to work on the waking up at a decent hour part, that'll happen, eventually. my parents are coming home tomorrow, i'm pretty stoked about it, but i wish i had something to show for the 10 days they were gone, ha!
on a side note, i'm glad i'm not REALLY asian, i know i look asian and all, but i'm glad i don't act like one. god, i think i would shoot myself if i was raised by my korean parents, or by any asian parents for that matter. thank god i don't know who they are, nor do i ever want to know who they are. especially my dad, fuck him that piece of scum. i'm not really sure where all of that came from... i haven't thought about my biological parents in a really long time, awkwaaaard.
anyways, it's fucking cold in my house. really fucking cold. and my brother won't turn on the heat, or make a fire in the fireplace, so i've basically been freezing my tiny asian ass off for the last 10 days. i can't wait till my parents come home, so they'll act like normal people and use heat instead of freeze to death.
oh, and things with john? ugh. everything is so routine now, we talk for about ten minutes on the phone about nothing and maybe talk online about nothing again. i feel so god damned alone! OH WAIT, I AM. relationships are so weird, i always wonder what other peoples' relationships are like, and if any of them are like ours. i think i'm over the whole jealousy thing, whatever really.
on a side note, i'm glad i'm not REALLY asian, i know i look asian and all, but i'm glad i don't act like one. god, i think i would shoot myself if i was raised by my korean parents, or by any asian parents for that matter. thank god i don't know who they are, nor do i ever want to know who they are. especially my dad, fuck him that piece of scum. i'm not really sure where all of that came from... i haven't thought about my biological parents in a really long time, awkwaaaard.
anyways, it's fucking cold in my house. really fucking cold. and my brother won't turn on the heat, or make a fire in the fireplace, so i've basically been freezing my tiny asian ass off for the last 10 days. i can't wait till my parents come home, so they'll act like normal people and use heat instead of freeze to death.
oh, and things with john? ugh. everything is so routine now, we talk for about ten minutes on the phone about nothing and maybe talk online about nothing again. i feel so god damned alone! OH WAIT, I AM. relationships are so weird, i always wonder what other peoples' relationships are like, and if any of them are like ours. i think i'm over the whole jealousy thing, whatever really.