see this is why i try not to fall so hard

[ayla_kun]

Yesterday afternoon while sitting there and wondering if I was actually tired enough to sleep or stay awake. Well I finally sleep and then decide to get up and visit with my roomies. Well I get a text from my cousin saying that she needs my moral support to "break up" with a guy that she has been partaking in activities that she doesn't normally do as in sex.weed.alcohol. And this has happened ever since she met this guy. Now for all of you who are some what lost about this I know this guy cause he used to work with me and I was the one who introduced them because I was trying to be polite and just introduce them. Well skip to about 2 months later and this once good girl that I knew and loved has turned into someone that I don't care to know at all. So...I meet her at his work(my old work) and watched her break down and say it to him which I was very proud and the reason she gave for not wanting to see him is because "she needed to strengthen her relationship with God". Im not religous or anything but that is the ONLY excuse that I can except. So afterwards she was upset he was clearly "irked". Her and I went to get something to eat and then I took her to get her car and upon her request I asked if he would like to hang out with me and he said yes and I picked him up after work. We were having a great time and then she starts calling and he gets annoyed cause she is annoying me and calls her and basically says "fuck off you dumb bitch". Well after a fun filled night I dropped him off and after flirting for about 3 hours and all...he has to go so he leans and we kiss...not long but not short. In my words it was perfect. And he leaves and im on cloud 9.....*slams back down reality*. My cousin ran away to him to apologize and is back together with him. *cries*. I liked him alot. I have and she knew it. *whimpers* why does this always happens to me?? AM I THAT BAD OF A PERSON./??

I guess that is all for now. Right now I just want to cry.
~niki~