it's just awful.

[axidentlyinluv]

i can't get over him. i can't stop thinking about him. i can not get him out of my mind. it makes me sick. he's treating me like i'm a frickin leper or something. he wont talk to me. he barely looks at me. and i dont know why. i can't get anything from him. so why can't i move on? the truth is, when he ignores me, it just makes me wanna try harder to get him to pay attention to me. you'd think i would just be pissed off and ignore him, but that's not what's happening. no matter what i'm doing, he is ALWAYS on my mind. i hate it. even at church last night i caught myself drifting off and thinking about him. i honestly have flashbacks of when i was with him. it makes me soo sad because i miss him so much. i havent slept for 3 nights- i can't. part of it is excitement for this weekend, but most of it is because of him. the other night i just started typing out EVERYTHING that ever happened between scott and i. i wrote from the first day he even talked to me, to the day he broke up with me...10 pages later and many tears later i still can't get him out of my head. people just dont understand. they think i should be over him. they think it should've been easy. but it's not and they are wrong.

well...i have to get my hair cut.
later much
♥ sammi

ps- ONE DAY TIL BATTLE CRY.