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so TWO DAYS TIL BATTLE CRY. omg i am sooo excited!!!!!!!! :)
that's probably the only thing keeping me going this week. i'm so upset about scott. why the hell he STILL wont talk to me or even look at me. it's ridiculous... i dont know what i did to deserve it. i really don't. but i'll be honest, it hurts a lot. mom says i should just go up and say something, but for some reason i can't bring myself to do it. i was never shy around him before, but now its...different. like today, he was in my fourth hour talking to hildabeth for like 10 minutes- he didnt even LOOK at me. he knew i was right there in front of him. then he came back like 15 minutes later, and he ignored me until right when he was walking out and he waved. woo hoo. then he left and came back again- just sat in our class. why would ANYONE want to sit in HILDABETH'S class for gosh sakes... dear lord i'd shoot myself first. it was weird... but he ignored me again. i really just wnat to know what i did and how to fix it.
this is just what i feared would happen when i had a boyfriend... i hate it when people break up and they're not even FRIENDS anymore. and now look. that's probably what's happening here. i'm trying to fix it. i really am. just for some reason, it's not working that way...
just keep praying for this all to work out. and please everyone, pray for Battle Cry this weekend- there is obviously gonna be protesters again, just like last weekend in L.A. pray that the devil CAN'T break this. we have to stay strong.
♥ sammi
that's probably the only thing keeping me going this week. i'm so upset about scott. why the hell he STILL wont talk to me or even look at me. it's ridiculous... i dont know what i did to deserve it. i really don't. but i'll be honest, it hurts a lot. mom says i should just go up and say something, but for some reason i can't bring myself to do it. i was never shy around him before, but now its...different. like today, he was in my fourth hour talking to hildabeth for like 10 minutes- he didnt even LOOK at me. he knew i was right there in front of him. then he came back like 15 minutes later, and he ignored me until right when he was walking out and he waved. woo hoo. then he left and came back again- just sat in our class. why would ANYONE want to sit in HILDABETH'S class for gosh sakes... dear lord i'd shoot myself first. it was weird... but he ignored me again. i really just wnat to know what i did and how to fix it.
this is just what i feared would happen when i had a boyfriend... i hate it when people break up and they're not even FRIENDS anymore. and now look. that's probably what's happening here. i'm trying to fix it. i really am. just for some reason, it's not working that way...
just keep praying for this all to work out. and please everyone, pray for Battle Cry this weekend- there is obviously gonna be protesters again, just like last weekend in L.A. pray that the devil CAN'T break this. we have to stay strong.
♥ sammi