If this is what I want, then why does it hurt so much?

[axfirexinsidex3]

Everyone comes to a point in their lives when they have to make an important decision. What feels best may not be the best outcome in the end.... despite that I feel so empty and alone, I know that I did the right thing, and that you will thank me for it. There's noone on this earth that can compare to you, noone can make me laugh as much as you do, or make me feel as warm and fuzzy inside. We had many great memories over the past year, I'd have to say that this past year has been the best in my life. But I am in a new world now, where I have to focus on my work 24/7, this way I don't have to feel like I'm being a shitty girlfriend when I can't talk on the phone for an extended period of time because I have homework to do. And I don't have to feel bad about going out to parties and having fun with the people that I've met here. I care about you and everyone else back in Jersey more than anything, but I'm not there anymore, nor do I want to be. This is my home now, this is my lifestyle. Call me selfish, but for once in my life I am content with everything, and I am proud of what accomplishments that I have made so that I can be here. This, of course, requires me to do even more work now that I'm here. And so that I can be completely comfortable here, this is why I made this decision. I love you more than anything and anyone in this world.... but I feel as though this would do us both some good. We may work out, we may not... only time can tell, but everything happens for a reason. I am here for you no matter what, because I believe that our friendship that we have established conquers everything. In the end, I know that you will thank me for this.
I love you, always and forever <3
~Laura