1) getting out of quincy is, i think, a good idea for you. it isn't hard. you just need to find a place you would enjoy living. don't worry about not knowing people. you will meet people, develope friendships, and you are never alone. you at the very least will always have the network of friends that you have had since high school. a job may not solve all of your problems, but at least you will have a means and reason to leave. try looking for jobs in cities that you are interested in living in.
2) i can't imagine living at home again. i love my family, but they start to drive me nuts after about a week. there is only so much i can take. so i completely understand. have you thought of looking for a cheap apartment in quincy that you could rent till you get a "real" job? it may offend your parents, but they need to realize that you are at a perfectly reasonable age and stage in your life to move out on your own. if you moving out into an apartment would cause problems at work, think about looking for a different job. i'm sure that you could find employment somewhere. i would suggest discussing with your parents more lenient restrictions, but knowing what little i do about your father, i'm not sure that that would be a good idea. i can just hear retaliations of "you're living under my roof, you will obey my orders" and the like.
3) moving out and finding a job, either a different one in quincy or a "real" one in another city far away, will both allow more freedom for you to exercise and express your sexuality. getting away from your father seems to be the key to you being able to express who you are. he may have changed in recent years, but again, what i remember of him, i can't imagine you having much freedom to be who you are, or to be happy because of that. hell, i remember us being afraid that he had taken you out and killed you when you came out to him, for god's sake. i think that once you get on your own, you will feel a lot better about life and be a lot happier, because you won't have to watch what you say and do. it seems to me that you are needing a lot more personal and individual time than you are recieving.
4) i think that all that i have said above is probably the key to you getting out of your rut. being home always does that to me. again, i think you probably just need to get away.
you can do it! the first step is scary, but you will be glad you took it!
2) i can't imagine living at home again. i love my family, but they start to drive me nuts after about a week. there is only so much i can take. so i completely understand. have you thought of looking for a cheap apartment in quincy that you could rent till you get a "real" job? it may offend your parents, but they need to realize that you are at a perfectly reasonable age and stage in your life to move out on your own. if you moving out into an apartment would cause problems at work, think about looking for a different job. i'm sure that you could find employment somewhere. i would suggest discussing with your parents more lenient restrictions, but knowing what little i do about your father, i'm not sure that that would be a good idea. i can just hear retaliations of "you're living under my roof, you will obey my orders" and the like.
3) moving out and finding a job, either a different one in quincy or a "real" one in another city far away, will both allow more freedom for you to exercise and express your sexuality. getting away from your father seems to be the key to you being able to express who you are. he may have changed in recent years, but again, what i remember of him, i can't imagine you having much freedom to be who you are, or to be happy because of that. hell, i remember us being afraid that he had taken you out and killed you when you came out to him, for god's sake. i think that once you get on your own, you will feel a lot better about life and be a lot happier, because you won't have to watch what you say and do. it seems to me that you are needing a lot more personal and individual time than you are recieving.
4) i think that all that i have said above is probably the key to you getting out of your rut. being home always does that to me. again, i think you probably just need to get away.
you can do it! the first step is scary, but you will be glad you took it!
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