I didn't realize the boyscouts still did that - I mean, I know they used to and that really offended me (and was why I quit when I was younger, even though my dad was the scoutmaster and wouldn't talk to me for months after I left his troop) but I thought by now they'd have stopped that. It just seems so wrong that a group could actually maintain such twisted 'morals' for such a long time. I hope they do disband if they don't stop this approach.
I totally understand the get the hell away from the parents bit too. I couldn't wait to flee, which is why I left MN and came to Truman instead, and haven't really gone back for more than a brief visit. If I don't do what my dad thinks I should do he makes my life hell until I do it. Your dad sounds like he's similar, and I'm realy sorry to hear that. In the end though, you'll be the one that gets to make you own choices for your own life and he can't do a damn thing about it when you're free of his grip after getting out of the house. I hope that's sooner rather than later for you.
Being forced to play someone you're not and hide things about yourself just because your dad doesn't like it just isn't right. You should be free to be yourself, and those that don't like you for who you are aren't worth your time. Friends or family that are only there for you when you wear the mask they approve of are nothing more than leeches on your time and sanity. Those that accept you for who you are and are there for you regardless of masks are the real family you find in life.
The last part up there is the hardest to deal with though. I know exactly what it feels like to go back and forth between the emotional extremes so quickly, cause thats all I was doing all semester last year. I don't know how to fix it though, other than making changes everywhere you can until you figure out what it is that needs changing - then keep it changed. I tried partying myself into a coma a lot of the time so I wouldn't have to think about it and thus not deal with it, but thats really not a good way to go. I'll be on AIM from 2-6am every weekday though, so lemme know if I can be of any help at all.
Best of luck being who you are, and finding a path to the future where you'll be who you want to be. If I can help at all, I'll be there for a stroll down the path too =)
I totally understand the get the hell away from the parents bit too. I couldn't wait to flee, which is why I left MN and came to Truman instead, and haven't really gone back for more than a brief visit. If I don't do what my dad thinks I should do he makes my life hell until I do it. Your dad sounds like he's similar, and I'm realy sorry to hear that. In the end though, you'll be the one that gets to make you own choices for your own life and he can't do a damn thing about it when you're free of his grip after getting out of the house. I hope that's sooner rather than later for you.
Being forced to play someone you're not and hide things about yourself just because your dad doesn't like it just isn't right. You should be free to be yourself, and those that don't like you for who you are aren't worth your time. Friends or family that are only there for you when you wear the mask they approve of are nothing more than leeches on your time and sanity. Those that accept you for who you are and are there for you regardless of masks are the real family you find in life.
The last part up there is the hardest to deal with though. I know exactly what it feels like to go back and forth between the emotional extremes so quickly, cause thats all I was doing all semester last year. I don't know how to fix it though, other than making changes everywhere you can until you figure out what it is that needs changing - then keep it changed. I tried partying myself into a coma a lot of the time so I wouldn't have to think about it and thus not deal with it, but thats really not a good way to go. I'll be on AIM from 2-6am every weekday though, so lemme know if I can be of any help at all.
Best of luck being who you are, and finding a path to the future where you'll be who you want to be. If I can help at all, I'll be there for a stroll down the path too =)
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