I've recorded a few parts of ABC today. It does not go very well. Or, rather, I think it does, but when I listen to it (after having edited it), I make so many mistakes! It's just so frustrating.

I really don't want you to not like me, and I find myself adjusting my opinions and expressions to suit you. And then hating myself for it, because you should like me for who I am, and I'm too old to not be myself.

I should be sure enough in myself to stand my ground, but I'm not. I've never been. I want and need your approval, and for that I'm