I wonder...
Do you ever wonder what happens in a person's life that could take them in a direction that you never thought they would go in? Seriously. What could have happened so differently in one life and not in another that could send two friends who were previously very close in two polar opposite directions? This is what I am thinking now. I have recieved some information regarding an old friend of mine... and I am just shaking my head. For someone who used to be so much like myself... she is now so completely different. She used to make me feel bad for different things in my life because she was "cleaner", in a sense, than I was. Mainly because it was not the norm in our group. We were overly prude if you want to know the truth. We didnt drink, smoke, get in trouble, have sex, none of it. And for the most part I have stayed the same. My friends are on the right track and working toward their degrees and we are all very responsible, but we all still know how to have fun at the same time. Basically.. I have found a group of people like the people I hung out with in highschool. We drink occassionally, but we do not abuse it. We know what are are doing... but this friend of mine... who used to be so like me... has dug herself a hole.
She has apparently become a huge alcoholic and is always on some sort of drug... codine or mushrooms and she is almost always smoking pot. This coming from the girl who said she would never drink until she was 21... the girl who said she would never smoke. The one who owned straight edge tshirts. And granted.. you cant expect for someone to actually stick to all of those things... even I didnt wait til 21 to drink and Im as goody two shoes as you get. But she went and got into everything we had once said we were against. She even yelled at people for doing the stupid shit she is doing now. What is funny is that she is acting like the one person she truely despised in high school. Shes getting high, getting drunk, and having sex with random people. She apparently says she is suicidal and is cutting herself. She is getting a tattoo of stitches on one of her wrists. I really just dont even know what happened to this girl... And I feel sorry for her. I mean.. she is miserable... and she says she is miserable, yet she isnt changing anything in her life. I know it is probably bad to say, but Im glad I didnt follow the path she chose too. We used to do everything together. But our senior year of High School we started to drift apart. Im not sure why, but we did. And Im just happy that I have a clear head on my shoulders. I know what I want to be and where I want to go.. and she is barely passing her classes. Im hoping that she will get herself together one day. There are many people that I will be praying for.
She has apparently become a huge alcoholic and is always on some sort of drug... codine or mushrooms and she is almost always smoking pot. This coming from the girl who said she would never drink until she was 21... the girl who said she would never smoke. The one who owned straight edge tshirts. And granted.. you cant expect for someone to actually stick to all of those things... even I didnt wait til 21 to drink and Im as goody two shoes as you get. But she went and got into everything we had once said we were against. She even yelled at people for doing the stupid shit she is doing now. What is funny is that she is acting like the one person she truely despised in high school. Shes getting high, getting drunk, and having sex with random people. She apparently says she is suicidal and is cutting herself. She is getting a tattoo of stitches on one of her wrists. I really just dont even know what happened to this girl... And I feel sorry for her. I mean.. she is miserable... and she says she is miserable, yet she isnt changing anything in her life. I know it is probably bad to say, but Im glad I didnt follow the path she chose too. We used to do everything together. But our senior year of High School we started to drift apart. Im not sure why, but we did. And Im just happy that I have a clear head on my shoulders. I know what I want to be and where I want to go.. and she is barely passing her classes. Im hoping that she will get herself together one day. There are many people that I will be praying for.