that black spot on the sun is only more light
The hardness of today
the stinging around the eyes
the forced smiles like pushing against a rock
that has fallen in the way of my life.
I'm a cutter, but you won't see it
it's only on the inside that i make my incisions, the careless slashings of doubt, of regret.
I preempt myself with failure, set myself up to set myself back
I am not as unloved as I believe myself to be, but I believe myself to be
of course I believe in myself, maybe too much, and not enough in other people, other things
I know there are things in this world that are greater than me, that's not the problem
I know there are things in this world I'd rather didn't exist, and I'm one of them
This isn't a suicide note or a cry for help, no one wants to deal with that, I know I don't.
the stinging around the eyes
the forced smiles like pushing against a rock
that has fallen in the way of my life.
I'm a cutter, but you won't see it
it's only on the inside that i make my incisions, the careless slashings of doubt, of regret.
I preempt myself with failure, set myself up to set myself back
I am not as unloved as I believe myself to be, but I believe myself to be
of course I believe in myself, maybe too much, and not enough in other people, other things
I know there are things in this world that are greater than me, that's not the problem
I know there are things in this world I'd rather didn't exist, and I'm one of them
This isn't a suicide note or a cry for help, no one wants to deal with that, I know I don't.