Leapt and Leaping
Carving out new time for myself. Trying to tie the days together with new vigor and substance. Loneliness nipping at my heals. I am alive. I am deciding things now for myself, by myself.
She was too big for this life
she wore her life like a too little jacket
a big rip down the back
she was a train
and i was the track, the ballast
there was no room for an elephant in our house
everything that was not made of her was squeezed out
my heart once sent word to me from another state where'd it'd run away to
warning me to get out
i didn't even know that it'd gone
So I stuffed pillows under the bed sheets next to where she lay
and i began to write letters that i would send back to my heart
she became very suspicious
light shinning from the living room, it stretched out lazily over her face
giving me away
when she came to collect me, i resisted
she cut me down with lightening
she was a jealous and controlling lover
She was too big for this life
she wore her life like a too little jacket
a big rip down the back
she was a train
and i was the track, the ballast
there was no room for an elephant in our house
everything that was not made of her was squeezed out
my heart once sent word to me from another state where'd it'd run away to
warning me to get out
i didn't even know that it'd gone
So I stuffed pillows under the bed sheets next to where she lay
and i began to write letters that i would send back to my heart
she became very suspicious
light shinning from the living room, it stretched out lazily over her face
giving me away
when she came to collect me, i resisted
she cut me down with lightening
she was a jealous and controlling lover