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ive been home since friday with no contact from the outside world. gahh. okay, maybe contact by phone. but what a boring weekend. i love being sick on school days and missing school, but the weekend, helllll no. i havent seen dj since thursday, and as much as im used to not seeing boyfriends, i'm not used to not seeing him. he's the person who gets me through the day. its crazy snowy out there, even if i wasn't sick.. i probably would have been snowed in my house, hence the reason he couldnt get here to cuddle with me =[. snow day today, which is amazing. i actually did all my homework + my stats project. phillip and i are on better terms now. we're back to being good friends, which i admit.... is really hard, but, im glad.. cuz im not into losing friends and he was my best friend when i had noone. its nice that i can talk to him about dj, and he can talk to me about lauren, although i dont always like to hear what he has to say... he says he's not happy with lauren, which he's admited to me... but then he leaves her comments saying he misses her and loves her, so whatever.. he's a liar, but what else is new... and he knows that im exteremly happy with dj. 10 days til december 27. 12/27-1/1 is going to be hard... but it'll be okay. i can't wait for christmas even though its going to be the hardest one ever, and even though i have done absolutly NO shopping yet. im just excited to be off and spending christmas with dj and his family as well as mine. he is such an incredible person, i yuvv him. i wish this wasnt our first christmas together before he leaves. i reallyyyy dont want him to leave for the marines, like.. what luck i have with boys who always leave. i hope things stay good between us while he's gone. its really going to suck and i hope i can do it. i applied to akron and kent. hopefully i get into one of them, if not both. delanie and i have gotten a lot closer, which is really nice... even though i may have gotten her into some effed up boy problems but its all better now. we've been going through the same thing, basically... but we're both happy with who we're with now. everything just kinda seemed to work itself out. me n beee have been talking again :) i missed her. it seems like we're inseperable in the summer.. but once school starts our schedules go seperate ways and we dont see much of each other. holly and i havent been as close lately... idk why we are so weird. but everyone else is good. i love my friends =]. i've been up since 5:45 and can't fall back asleep. i watched mean girls... then i put cmt on butttttt that didnt work, just made me think of other times cmt has been on to make me fall asleep. i'm completely rambling now, but im bored and tired, so whateverr. i wana see ian, i hope he can stop here on his way home. its so snowyy outtt. i just wana go playyy!