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[awarnach2419]

So,... it happened. He's home. He knows exactly how I feel, or well, felt (as far as he thinks). I wrote it in a letter right before he left, thinking I would never see him again. And he's home. My insides are clawing their way out. I still have so many feelings for him. He is the one boy, that no matter what, no matter how bad, I will always like

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[tsiyi]

like i said, it would be better not to hang out with him. if that's the way you feel, do not EVER hurt him in the same manner you hurt me. i won't be friends with out anymore.

[awarnach2419]

That is the way I feel. But the very last part is about Phillip. Because he's not you.
It takes every single thought of him away, even if it's for a split second.
And it makes me remind myself that he struck out 3 times.
And if I was ever even put into a position like that, I wouldn't be able to do anything because I can't kiss anyone else. He's not Phillip, I just couldn't do it. I will never, ever cheat on him.
And I'm not going to let my past or my head get in the way of being friends with him. I'm not one to do that. I love him as a friend, and I care about him, and come fall he'll probably be leaving again but for another country with the Peace Corps. So I'm going to be on good terms while I can.

[tsiyi]

yeah well sorry that when you "feel that strongly" for someone where you just want him to notice how bad you want him kinda makes me feel uneasy for Phillip's sake. i guess fucking sorry i still feel like shit about everything. I guess I wasn't half Phillip is.

sorry for everything.

[_bentxbroken]

thats what they do. you know this.
but the name thing...
"bye dani"
haha. you got crazy.
like giddy crazy.
its funny.
FAHB