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so i have been sick for the past week
yucky puke
ugh
i am all better now
after a whole week of not eating solid foods
or any food with flavor for that matter
food tastes glorious!!
chinese food tonight....yuuummmm
no school for me on thursday
i have a half day
but it is afternoon classes
but i don't have any of those
i don't know what i am going to do
i want to go shopping for spring break
but i only have $150 saved for spending on the trip so far
and well...i want a lot more than that
and blowing it now won't do that
but maybe mom or dad will give me some money
my knee hurts
i hate when it rains
actually i love it
i just hate the way my knee feels when it does
haha funny jokes with wayne
mmm cat
tasty...lol
hope my cat doesn't die
haha
oh that is so wrong
ahh money whoa's
there is less than a month until i leave for florida
i wanted to have $400 by then
i only have $150
i will get $100 next tuesday
that is $250
and hopefully another $100 two weeks from next tuesday...so thats $350
$50 short of what i wanted
so now that means i have to pick up extra days at work
my life is going to be so boring for the next month
i hate when i don't ask my dad for help
i told my mom we could do this on our own...i just needed her help
she is paying the money for the actual trip
i just have to come up with the money for food and shopping
i decided on $400
thats enough for about $175 for food
and $225 for shopping
thats good enough to last me 12 days...i hope
i mean we are leaving on wednesday before spring break starts
and coming back the sunday before school starts back up
we are driving so thats two days where i won't need shopping money, just food
so really only 10 days of actually being in florida
i need to win the lottery!!!
or just stop being so stubbern and ask my dad for help
maybe he will
he did last year
but thats when i went with the band
he doesn't want me to go this year because it is with my friends
he hates my friends
ahh maybe i will have my mom call and talk to him
i still need to have her pay the $ for the rest of the trip
i hate to ask her for it though
because i know when she pays it money will be tight for her
i hate that she doesn't have money like him
its not fair
she deserves it so much more than him
its his fault she doesn't have it
he did this to her
he put us here
he did this on purpose
he wanted to be able to control our lives
i hate him for that
i hate him
i hate him
i hate him
(shuddering with tears streaming down my face)
i wish the world was different for her
i wish she wouldn't have given up everything to be with him
even if it means i wouldn't be here
i wish she would have left and gone to college instead of working her ass off to help him pay to go
she shouldn't have married him so young
she could have been anything
but she didn't try
she wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of her life with him
and then he left
he found my stepmom and left us
she didn't have anything without him
but when it all started, he didn't have anything without her
he forgets that now
she could have gone to college and been anything she wanted to be
but because of him she has to bust her ass at a lame ass job that she hates
just to take care of me
i try not to ask her for too much
but she knows i want things
and gets them for me anyway
even if it means she can't have what she wants
i want to be something big when i grow up
i want to do huge things so i can give her everything she could have ever wanted
thats what she has done for me
i love my mom for that
i love her for always putting me first even though i don't want her to
she needs to have things for her
but she wants to give me the things i need to have my dreams come true
thank you mom
i love you
wow...so i wasn't planning on writing about my parents
i was going to avoid all that tonight
save myself from all the tears
but it came out anyway
it has a way of creeping up and doing that sometimes
well i need to get back to my moms house
i need to talk to her
and the new season of summerland starts in a half hour!!
so i better jet
later tater
yucky puke
ugh
i am all better now
after a whole week of not eating solid foods
or any food with flavor for that matter
food tastes glorious!!
chinese food tonight....yuuummmm
no school for me on thursday
i have a half day
but it is afternoon classes
but i don't have any of those
i don't know what i am going to do
i want to go shopping for spring break
but i only have $150 saved for spending on the trip so far
and well...i want a lot more than that
and blowing it now won't do that
but maybe mom or dad will give me some money
my knee hurts
i hate when it rains
actually i love it
i just hate the way my knee feels when it does
haha funny jokes with wayne
mmm cat
tasty...lol
hope my cat doesn't die
haha
oh that is so wrong
ahh money whoa's
there is less than a month until i leave for florida
i wanted to have $400 by then
i only have $150
i will get $100 next tuesday
that is $250
and hopefully another $100 two weeks from next tuesday...so thats $350
$50 short of what i wanted
so now that means i have to pick up extra days at work
my life is going to be so boring for the next month
i hate when i don't ask my dad for help
i told my mom we could do this on our own...i just needed her help
she is paying the money for the actual trip
i just have to come up with the money for food and shopping
i decided on $400
thats enough for about $175 for food
and $225 for shopping
thats good enough to last me 12 days...i hope
i mean we are leaving on wednesday before spring break starts
and coming back the sunday before school starts back up
we are driving so thats two days where i won't need shopping money, just food
so really only 10 days of actually being in florida
i need to win the lottery!!!
or just stop being so stubbern and ask my dad for help
maybe he will
he did last year
but thats when i went with the band
he doesn't want me to go this year because it is with my friends
he hates my friends
ahh maybe i will have my mom call and talk to him
i still need to have her pay the $ for the rest of the trip
i hate to ask her for it though
because i know when she pays it money will be tight for her
i hate that she doesn't have money like him
its not fair
she deserves it so much more than him
its his fault she doesn't have it
he did this to her
he put us here
he did this on purpose
he wanted to be able to control our lives
i hate him for that
i hate him
i hate him
i hate him
(shuddering with tears streaming down my face)
i wish the world was different for her
i wish she wouldn't have given up everything to be with him
even if it means i wouldn't be here
i wish she would have left and gone to college instead of working her ass off to help him pay to go
she shouldn't have married him so young
she could have been anything
but she didn't try
she wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of her life with him
and then he left
he found my stepmom and left us
she didn't have anything without him
but when it all started, he didn't have anything without her
he forgets that now
she could have gone to college and been anything she wanted to be
but because of him she has to bust her ass at a lame ass job that she hates
just to take care of me
i try not to ask her for too much
but she knows i want things
and gets them for me anyway
even if it means she can't have what she wants
i want to be something big when i grow up
i want to do huge things so i can give her everything she could have ever wanted
thats what she has done for me
i love my mom for that
i love her for always putting me first even though i don't want her to
she needs to have things for her
but she wants to give me the things i need to have my dreams come true
thank you mom
i love you
wow...so i wasn't planning on writing about my parents
i was going to avoid all that tonight
save myself from all the tears
but it came out anyway
it has a way of creeping up and doing that sometimes
well i need to get back to my moms house
i need to talk to her
and the new season of summerland starts in a half hour!!
so i better jet
later tater