sometimes keeping it simple is the best thing to do
so i know my last entry didn't make any sense to anyone that I haven't actually talked to in the past three weeks, but oh well. I analyzed the situation until there was basically nothing left of it in my mind, and I was so confused and frustrated. I was asking advice from everyone and it was just making things so much more confusing. Then last night the situation came to me and smiled, and I realized that things might not be all rainbows and butterflies but it is good, and thats all that matters. I don't care if this isn't perfect, I want it anyway, and as for things that I wanted to be able to get back, that would not be a good idea. I want what I have and I am glad to have it, and for the things that I don't have anymore, I still have memories and friendships from it, and thats more than I started with, so its ok. I am just really glad that I realized all of this before I screwed everything up. I must say that someones smile is amazing and he is beautiful in so many ways even if he isn't perfect. I am learning to accept and enjoy the imperfections and it is just making things even better. I think thats all I have to say for now! So yes, I am going to stop rambling on about things that make absolutely no sense to anyone but me!