Rising From The Dead...
I guess the title says it all. It has been a rough go of it for the last couple of weeks. I have been extremely down on myself about a lot of things in my life but I am beginning to slowly claw my way out from that black hole once again. I need to figure out a way to stay out of that hole for more than a week at a time if I can. I think that's what the local shrink will be doing once I find one that I'm happy with and that I can afford to go to for at least some time frame.
For those of you who are wondering, the current project at work ends as of Feb. 28, 2006. They are training people for a new project which according to the managers is supposed to be huge. I guess we are going to be dealing with senior citizens and the prescription drug benefit from our happy government. It could be worse in that it could be another cell phone company. Please shoot me if that ever happens. Oh wait... I'll shoot myself long before you could get to me.
A sign of things starting to turn around is that I'm starting to work on some fan fiction again. Of course, I'm going back to my roots in putting it in the Star Trek universe, actually Voyager. I have the start of another one based around DS9 but both of the stories have their own classic mind fuck ideas. The Voyager story is something that I worked on once before about 10 years ago but was not happy with the ending (It was all a Q thing) but I loved the second part where Q was being put on try by humanity for all the crap he directly or indirectly caused. It was a serious subject that didn't come off nearly as well as I hoped. The DS9 story deals with alternate universes while the Voyager deals with dreams and nightmares. Normal disturbing stuff.
Also, "I'm starting to flesh out an idea for a short story (or novella) of my own original design. I had thought about using it as the basis of an RPG actually somewhere down the line. I think both avenues will help me in the long run straighten the ideas out and get the main NPCs and characters out onto paper so that I can actually see what I'm in the process of creating.
My tarot cards have been seeing some use, not a lot of use, but some use. I think I need to actually sit down and order all three decks again just because they seem a bit worn out, something like me. They don't feel terrible but again just worn out. I have been probed several times over the past few weeks by something or someone. It seems that someone is smelling blood in the water and has decided to take a peak. Or it could be someone else that I know trying to find a way in to tell me something. One of these days, my defenses are totally going to be down and then I'm not sure what in the world would happen.
Anyway, I'm going to get some sleep. I'm up at 7:30 in the morning for work. I wonder what my schedule is going to be if the center goes 24 hours, 7 days a week.
Margaret, you mean SO much to me, you have no idea. Thanks for being there!
For those of you who are wondering, the current project at work ends as of Feb. 28, 2006. They are training people for a new project which according to the managers is supposed to be huge. I guess we are going to be dealing with senior citizens and the prescription drug benefit from our happy government. It could be worse in that it could be another cell phone company. Please shoot me if that ever happens. Oh wait... I'll shoot myself long before you could get to me.
A sign of things starting to turn around is that I'm starting to work on some fan fiction again. Of course, I'm going back to my roots in putting it in the Star Trek universe, actually Voyager. I have the start of another one based around DS9 but both of the stories have their own classic mind fuck ideas. The Voyager story is something that I worked on once before about 10 years ago but was not happy with the ending (It was all a Q thing) but I loved the second part where Q was being put on try by humanity for all the crap he directly or indirectly caused. It was a serious subject that didn't come off nearly as well as I hoped. The DS9 story deals with alternate universes while the Voyager deals with dreams and nightmares. Normal disturbing stuff.
Also, "I'm starting to flesh out an idea for a short story (or novella) of my own original design. I had thought about using it as the basis of an RPG actually somewhere down the line. I think both avenues will help me in the long run straighten the ideas out and get the main NPCs and characters out onto paper so that I can actually see what I'm in the process of creating.
My tarot cards have been seeing some use, not a lot of use, but some use. I think I need to actually sit down and order all three decks again just because they seem a bit worn out, something like me. They don't feel terrible but again just worn out. I have been probed several times over the past few weeks by something or someone. It seems that someone is smelling blood in the water and has decided to take a peak. Or it could be someone else that I know trying to find a way in to tell me something. One of these days, my defenses are totally going to be down and then I'm not sure what in the world would happen.
Anyway, I'm going to get some sleep. I'm up at 7:30 in the morning for work. I wonder what my schedule is going to be if the center goes 24 hours, 7 days a week.
Margaret, you mean SO much to me, you have no idea. Thanks for being there!