Not talking
So I've decided to quit talking. At first it was just because I was annoyed but now that I have been at it for a good 20 minutes I think it might have some potential. Oddly enough the last words I spoke were, "stupid boy". It's really too bad that hurt isn't one of the current moods cause that would basically tell you where I am. He invited me to go with him to dinner at his grandparents house tonight. And then calls me like 45 minutes before he should be picking me up to tell me that his grandmother doesn't want me to come. So I say fine and nothing else. And he says I can't hear you I'll talk to you later. I know it really wasn't his fault although surely he knew earlier in the day. He could have left a message on my answering machine because my sister seems incapable of giving me the message that he called. Things could have been worse than they were. If it had been a normal day my parents would have already left for dinner by the time he called me. That would have sucked. Yeah, no one wants to have dinner with you. It just bugs me because he was annoyed that I didn't seem like I really wanted to go. Yeah I'm sure I'll be thrilled next time. I guess this means something though. After all you aren't going to invite your girlfriend to have dinner with your grandparents unless you see some sort of future in it. It just doesn't make sense. Yeah that probably sounds scary. I'm just really annoyed right now. Not really annoyed just hurt. I kinda feel like fine do whatever you want but why am I sitting here just waiting for you. That seems to be what I'm doing. And yeah sometimes it's worth it. I guess this is just one time when it isn't. But it's Tuesday now. He has plans tomorrow morning. I don't know about Thursday. But Friday he leaves the country. ::sighs:: The thing is I know that even if I told him that I might be here when he gets back I know that I am going to wait for him. Just like tonight. I am going to sit at home until he calls me like he said he would. ::shrugs:: Now I know I'm pathetic. This is such an oxymoronical song. I never know if it is a good thing that it's comforting or not.