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I was reading over old memories, and the thing is a lot has happened in the last 12 months. But things happened than that I didn't really think would pass and yet they did. I made a realization this morning that, like in skiing, I have to be more patient! With everything and every one. I was so patient with myself this weekend, and my skiing just jumped up another notch. I was finally skiing so smoothly, so effortlessly and I wasn't trying hard to control my skies but let them do their job. It was beautiful. So why not just take that mentality to this whole mess?
Reading back on those entries I realized this wasn't meant to be from the start. And I wanted it so badly, that I convinced myself that it was. Which made me realize how easy it is to convince oneself of something when you want it bad enough. What makes me wonder is, what does it take to make a person snap out of the fantasy and into reality? The reason why I ask is because this is exactly where my sister is. My fantasy was just oriented around one part of my life, hers on the other hand IS her life at the moment. It took me almost a year to get through this, what made me thing she could get over her 7 year relationship in 7 months. My god I am impatient!!! Yet again, something new to work on. OH I had another realization today: I LEAVE FOR GERMANY IN 3 WEEKS! YUPIIIIIII!!!
Reading back on those entries I realized this wasn't meant to be from the start. And I wanted it so badly, that I convinced myself that it was. Which made me realize how easy it is to convince oneself of something when you want it bad enough. What makes me wonder is, what does it take to make a person snap out of the fantasy and into reality? The reason why I ask is because this is exactly where my sister is. My fantasy was just oriented around one part of my life, hers on the other hand IS her life at the moment. It took me almost a year to get through this, what made me thing she could get over her 7 year relationship in 7 months. My god I am impatient!!! Yet again, something new to work on. OH I had another realization today: I LEAVE FOR GERMANY IN 3 WEEKS! YUPIIIIIII!!!