there is a place in the red light district of your heart that i used to visit.

[avertine]

dear livejournal,

sometimes i wonder to myself..who are my true friends? does anyone really care about me? who will be there in 5..10 months? this thought scares me because..
i don’t know the answer.

i miss having a set group of friends. i never had to feel funny calling someone to hang out. i never worried if they thought i was being desperate. i

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[rapturerapture]

having a group of set friends is what everyone wants. i want it too. it took me a whole year just to get the friends i have now. it was hard,gaining their trust and all. honestly,the people you hang out with now would talk to you if you dressed differently,the people you know i'm talking about. you shouldn't feel awkward calling me to hang out even though we've been friends for such a short time. right now,my friends and i are having some trouble with trust because of not being honest with eachother but we're going to get over it,eventually. and i feel the same way with friends changing and the "group" breaking up because it happened to me more than a few times and i found that i only felt shitty because i was looking back on how much i had,but then i learned not to look back and to look forward instead. i opened up to people and it really,really helped. it made me who i am now. i feel like a motivational speaker but i don't really care because it's all out of me now. i really hope you feel better,melissa. if you need to talk,i got your back.