I Don't Owe You That
Ah.. this morning was hard. Sorry for being a bitch, haha. I guess I have a tendency to blow up about something fairly meaningless only because it's being fueled by all the other shit that's happening. I know you said you just wanted me to be happy, but I apparently like being difficult. Sorry about that. I'll try to be better.
And Gracie/hotlikerobots? Thanks for listening.
As for what actually happened.. no one really needs to know besides those who already do. I'm just..wow, felt unbelievably pitiful this morning. Sad in every sense of the word. Alone, as usual. Hungry, too, how unsurpising. But mom came home last night and accused me of trying to kill myself by not eating. Wth's she talking about? I'm eating--not right, but eating nonetheless--and am fat as a whale, as usual.
I don't know if you know who you are, or care to read my journal at all...but knowing you're sad makes me sad, too. Because I don't know anything. I don't know what was going on...and even if I did, I wouldn't know what I can do. So I'm sad.
So.. hey. Dunno what to say. Feeling like shit but trying to be happy for the sake of not troubling everyone around me (haha, failed). Looking for the right moment to ask my mom if I can skip school tomorrow.. and about to pull my hair out because of the screaming bitchfiend that is our in-house dog.
To make myself feel better, I'm looking for stuff:
I NEED THE HOTTEST URUHA/RUKI PICS NOW
it's kind of my official anti-drug. so go go go
AAAAAND. I need Ruki pics. Silly God Disco era. PLEASE. He's so gorgeous there. SPAM ME.
Also, any and all pics of male VK hips.
Birthin' hips are given A+.
*mee-yow* ♥
And Gracie/hotlikerobots? Thanks for listening.
As for what actually happened.. no one really needs to know besides those who already do. I'm just..wow, felt unbelievably pitiful this morning. Sad in every sense of the word. Alone, as usual. Hungry, too, how unsurpising. But mom came home last night and accused me of trying to kill myself by not eating. Wth's she talking about? I'm eating--not right, but eating nonetheless--and am fat as a whale, as usual.
I don't know if you know who you are, or care to read my journal at all...but knowing you're sad makes me sad, too. Because I don't know anything. I don't know what was going on...and even if I did, I wouldn't know what I can do. So I'm sad.
So.. hey. Dunno what to say. Feeling like shit but trying to be happy for the sake of not troubling everyone around me (haha, failed). Looking for the right moment to ask my mom if I can skip school tomorrow.. and about to pull my hair out because of the screaming bitchfiend that is our in-house dog.
To make myself feel better, I'm looking for stuff:
I NEED THE HOTTEST URUHA/RUKI PICS NOW
it's kind of my official anti-drug. so go go go
AAAAAND. I need Ruki pics. Silly God Disco era. PLEASE. He's so gorgeous there. SPAM ME.
Also, any and all pics of male VK hips.
Birthin' hips are given A+.
*mee-yow* ♥