The Way Black Is Black, And Blue Is Just Blue
the morning... woke up and it was raining like holy shit. turns out, there's a storm, and it's already signal #3 (4 is the strongest, btw). so cold. and for like, half the day, there wasn't any electricity. so wtf, can't even play my video games.
i drained one and a half laptops, though. because i was chatting. but i got kinda tired of talking, so i called monica instead (er, lol? i guess i was just tired of being on the computer).
then i told her something.. and she said i was mean for doing that to the person. and i stood my ground by saying that i've always the one whose sacrificed and gave my time and lacked sleep, not the guy. it's unfair, but i can't help it, because i like sacrificing for him, it's just that i get... a little too sensitive about what's being said. or lackthereof.
sinabi ko naman sa friend ko dati na.. un nga, medyo na i-insecure ako sa relasyon namin. pero nga, nagalit lang sya--ba't daw ayaw ko maniwala na mahal nya ako. offended naman sya. pero sa totoo lang, hinihintay ko sya palagi. di ako nago-offline hangga't umalis sya. kasi gusto kong makipagusap--masaya. pero sya nga ung palaging nagiiwan sakin. and..i guess, sanay lang ako. pero after all, paranoia and a weird sense of logic lang naman yun eh, diba? nagkunwari nalang ako na everything's fine.
(note: if you understood this^ paragraph, and want to comment on it, do so in Filipino)
I can't go into detail about this here, though, sorry.
but that's okay. went online once the power was back on, rp'd a little and i intend to make myself feel better by drawing more, playing my video games while there's still electricity, and hoping that i have no school tomorrow. brb.
eta: i need an art shop name~ suggestions?
i drained one and a half laptops, though. because i was chatting. but i got kinda tired of talking, so i called monica instead (er, lol? i guess i was just tired of being on the computer).
then i told her something.. and she said i was mean for doing that to the person. and i stood my ground by saying that i've always the one whose sacrificed and gave my time and lacked sleep, not the guy. it's unfair, but i can't help it, because i like sacrificing for him, it's just that i get... a little too sensitive about what's being said. or lackthereof.
sinabi ko naman sa friend ko dati na.. un nga, medyo na i-insecure ako sa relasyon namin. pero nga, nagalit lang sya--ba't daw ayaw ko maniwala na mahal nya ako. offended naman sya. pero sa totoo lang, hinihintay ko sya palagi. di ako nago-offline hangga't umalis sya. kasi gusto kong makipagusap--masaya. pero sya nga ung palaging nagiiwan sakin. and..i guess, sanay lang ako. pero after all, paranoia and a weird sense of logic lang naman yun eh, diba? nagkunwari nalang ako na everything's fine.
(note: if you understood this^ paragraph, and want to comment on it, do so in Filipino)
I can't go into detail about this here, though, sorry.
but that's okay. went online once the power was back on, rp'd a little and i intend to make myself feel better by drawing more, playing my video games while there's still electricity, and hoping that i have no school tomorrow. brb.
eta: i need an art shop name~ suggestions?