Nov 08, 2006 13:11
I don't know, but I know that everytime it rains, it pours. My clouds in my mind are always mellow when it rains. I notice that, it makes me want to sleep more. Rain is something really romantic to me, it brings back a lot of memories that will always be the most top event in my life.
Rain can keep me calm, it doesn't get me mad, just makes me think. As the drops fall onto my umbrella and to the ground. My mind settles with the mood and then I'm done. Whenever I'm sad, rain actually brings out more emotions out. It can cause me to get in tune to what I probably didn't think about it before, but to the fact that I'm actually thinking about it now.
I realize that I just have to release all that negative stress and not hold it against myself. I want to actually take to the fact that I don't care what a lot of people say about me anymore. Especially to the ones that don't really know me or how I can react. It only matters in my heart on what I think, not about what you think.
I believe that...I'm a very experienced person. I delt with a lot of problems before. Basically relationship wise, and a little of Family problems. It wasn't anything serious though. It's nothing that I would ever slash my wrist about. I always wanted to live through another day to see how I would overcome that boundary. Climb up the highest mountain in the world, and maybe lived to tell about it. I am a
Risk Taker...
Knowing the things that could happen I would still do it anyway. Depends on what it's worth. If I know that, the moment will be ingraved in my mind, and if it's a good memory or thing that I'm doing. I want to experience it. I wan't to pursue it and thats it. If I hurt, then it's my problem, I want to deal with it because I put myself through it. I don't know anyone else telling me how stupid it was, or why did you do that, no. Wait....the one key to that is
"I know, but it was worth it."