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Found out my dog has lump, and i fear this time it's malignant :'( - she is still happy and full of life, I was so excited about her 10th birthday coming up. I wonder if it had been the hormones she was prescribed for her bladder, when she had breast cancer (benign), four years ago after having puppies, we were told it was dues hormones related to her reproductory system so she was desexed. I know it sounds so trivial but being an adult I have never been through a death not one affecting me directlym not of a pet or family member (relatives died but 30,000km away).
In light of this and other events in my life over the last few months, am deciding to ween myself off my meds, they are making me feel too numb inside, i have very limited emotional reactions, when it comes to sadness or happiness - anger on the other hand is a plenty. I don't want to feel this way anymore, I feel like a robot, I don't want to be around people, yet at the same time feel lonely.
In light of this and other events in my life over the last few months, am deciding to ween myself off my meds, they are making me feel too numb inside, i have very limited emotional reactions, when it comes to sadness or happiness - anger on the other hand is a plenty. I don't want to feel this way anymore, I feel like a robot, I don't want to be around people, yet at the same time feel lonely.