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Now comes the agonizing time where I'm trying not to be depressed over what did I do, how could I fix this, what the hell went wrong...is he upset and decided not to be more than just what we were because I've gained some weight... You know my anxiety is talking to me and I don't particularly like it. My anxiety is telling me that no one really does like me, that nobody gives a crap. That I'll never find that person that's supposed to be with. I don't think I felt this low in a very long time.
I didn't even enjoy work today. I was pretty much down and depressed all day. I didn't give a crap about the customers, I didn't give a crap about their purchases, I didn't give a crap about wrapping everything.
I'm just to the point where I don't want to be around anybody, for any amount of time, for any reason whatsoever. Even my kids. Which is really sad but it's true.
Exactly how the heck am I supposed to start out with somebody that I've had a history with? It's awkward. and very fresh in my mind considering everything that's happened.
I have dishes to do... I guess I'll do more thinking later.
I didn't even enjoy work today. I was pretty much down and depressed all day. I didn't give a crap about the customers, I didn't give a crap about their purchases, I didn't give a crap about wrapping everything.
I'm just to the point where I don't want to be around anybody, for any amount of time, for any reason whatsoever. Even my kids. Which is really sad but it's true.
Exactly how the heck am I supposed to start out with somebody that I've had a history with? It's awkward. and very fresh in my mind considering everything that's happened.
I have dishes to do... I guess I'll do more thinking later.