selfishness.
I totally hate myself right now. I want to chop my hair off short and color it, but we can't. We are broke.
He lied to me, too. He'd told me he would get me a gym membership after we got the car legal. I saw my dr yesterday. She wants me to lose weight NOW. She spoke to me about changing my meds but also that any one of them for fibromyalgia pain are weight gainers.
So, between my MDD, hypoglycemia and fibromyalgia, I'm screwed.
Because i was told yesterday that he isn't getting me a gym membership until after we get the girls home and their checks back.
So... there's that.
I feel fat, i feel ugly, and definitely not sexy.
My bonus son Danny is in town...and of course, im getting yelled at still and treated like a ten year old. Roy blames my behavior on my father, because apparently i act just like him.
No one in my family has told me that yet.
This morning, in front of Danny, he told me he was fed up and filing for divorce because i had a brain fog moment.
He doesn't care to understand me. And i struggle so hard with cognitive crap. I find myself struggling so hard to remember simple things.
I honestly feel like there is something wrong with me. There must be, if i keep doing things wrong and not being able to remember things easily.