done.
I've taken off my wedding rings, put them away.
I have been told so many hideous things today. I feel like I'm nothing but a burden, nothing but an empty shell and i can't do anything right. I didn't say a whole lot to him today.
I was afraid to.
I was even too afraid to ask him to grab me some feminine hygiene products when he was at the store. But i did. And i got yelled at for it when he got back.
I was made to walk, with Axl in tow, to the store and back because OMG he had to have the car...and he gave me his card begrudgingly beforehand.
I still haven't driven that car yet. At this point, i don't think i ever will.
he told me Phillip is right. That I'm nothing but a two-face. That i act one way around the authority and a complete different way when I'm not. Told me ask my daddy for money to get things from here on out. Told me ask my boyfriendfor money.
I screamed at him that i don't have an effing boyfriend. I hatebeing married to him. I want out. It doesn't matter what the hell I do, it's not his wayso it's not right.
He told me to make myself available.Go live under the bridge and become a whore. Said i was ungrateful. Said the whole church thing was a scam, and I'm only doing it to get out of going back to jail.
I don't sing anymore. I have been crying, in pain, guilt, frustration, and depression most of today.
I'm miserable. I told him that. He wants to pay for the divorce, leave me with Axl. No income. Because my disability was denied the first time, and it may take over a yearto finallyget it. If i doget it.
And now he's sending me mixed signals.
Kissed me good bye as he goes on an Uber run.