Weird Dreams, Wired Wakings.
Wow, i havent updated in forever. Sorry guys!
Lets start off with the funny stuff.
Took a afternoon nap, which I rarely do, and well, deep fried ice-cream before that made for a *very* interesting dream.
I start off riding my old horse Dusty across this wide open plain, into some estate. I dismount, and have a chance to examine myself and my surroundings. I'm apparently in a Black and white ruffly victorian-esque suit, and I follow a small cobblestone path into this GORGEOUS garden.
It became apparent to me then that it was an early morning air, as I took a breath of the cool, crisp air that was rich with the fragrance of the Jasmine, Hydrangea, and Roses growing everywhere.
I proceeded to go through a small rusty old gate, through a hedge maze, and into a smaller, but no less beautiful garden, with a table set for tea for two, and this beautiful, albeit very familiar girl standing a short distance away in a white dress that (now that I think about it) reminded me of Yukari's Paradise Kiss Ballgown. I called out....something (her name, I suppose) and looking ever so familiar, she starts walking my way (kitenfuego? parnsangel? fayefayechan?).....
Then stephen_poon ran in in his Jackie-Chan-Crossplaying-As-Chun-Li Cosplay, and starts trimming trimming hedges with his Spinning Bird Kick.
I woke up.
Wierdness, and damn you Stephen!
Heh, with that over, I get a call from Michelle, a close friend of mine.
Short backstory is that we'd met on a KoF board, met at UC, and hit it off quite well. We'd both lost touch with each other partly because of her finding a boyfriend, partly because of my random connage, but mostly because she changed. Alot. And it was all for her guy.
I was happy nonetheless. The fellow, to her, was everything she'd told me she'd wanted in a man. First and foremost, he was a UC boy, and A smart, handsome,boy with a healthy interest in anime and videogames to boot.
To say the least, I was taken aback slightly by the call out of the blue. All was not what it seemed, and her "totally perfect" boyfriend who she was "deliriously happy" about being with was a complete bastard.
*Recorded Phone Message I listened to. Punctuate every sentence by Michelle with a sob, or a short burst of tears*
Her: "I thought we had something special! I thought you liked me!! What was the matter?!"
Him: "Wrong. YOU thought we had something special. What did I like about you? You wre hot. What did I hate? Everything else. Quit calling me and leave me alone, bitch."
I wish I could say I was always in a tiny corner of her heart as a beacon of hope, but I suspect, more likely than not her calling me was a gamble. I wish I could say things'll go back to normal after this, but I dont see that hapenning. We've had too many bridges burn between us, and the times we had with each other, beign able to talk completely and freely about anything at all and nothing have been replaced mostly by awkward silences and polite greetings.
Ok, now you know the story, and I'd appreciate it that if nothing else, you read over the final portion of this post.
I've seen this hapen to far too many people, and I'd like to rest assured in the fact that I've had my say with my friends:
Relationships are wonderful, more often than not, life-changing experiences.
Love isnt something that you'll find at a specific locale, or in a specific time, or in any focused niche you'll direct your attention towards. As possibilities go, for any given moment, life's made of an infite number of those. When you make a choice you choose one possibility and its outcome, and end the other infinites.
What I mean to say is, when you direct your focus towards one niche such as:
"I want a UC boy!" "I want a cute cosplayer girl!" etc,etc.....
You're eliminating all your other options that come by. True, the other boy isnt a cosplayer at UC, but think about it, the guy who dosent cosplay and from NKU beside him might just be someone you could connect with on so many other levels.
Secondly, and pertaining to the earlier para:
For the love of the gods, DONT LIVE LONGING FOR AN IDEAL.
Ideals are just that, Paragons of perfection. We're human, and we can posess aspects of an ideal, but not the ideal itself. You're NEVER getting every little thing you want in a person. Thats something you'll just have to accept.
Lastly, and this is my most important point.
Its happenned with more than a few of you, and I know this is going to be old news for you, but...
Dont change. Please.
You're lovely, beautiful people. When you change the way you are, you're lying to yourself and the world. Sooner or later, you're going to have to deal with the consequences. If you're the sort who dosen't like, or dosen't prefer getting physical immediately into a relationship, then you're just not. If you're the sort that dosent like the needy-clingy factor in your relationship, then you're just not. If you're the sort that dresses one way, you dont have to change it to make yourself...exceedingly attractive to other because you're just not.
Change is something we cant avoid, and we change subconsciously, consciously, emotionally and physically every second we're alive. Some of us take changes for the better, and some for the worse. Its your own thing. Dont, Dont, Dont force change in yourself for others.
Your significant others, your lovers, your partners will have to accept you for who you are, for you'll both suffer when you're living lies.
That is all, and thanks for letting me have my say.
Shaz, Reporting Out!
P.S: My Cel phone is dead X.x. If you planned on calling me before monday, or I was going to call you, please do so on my home phone: 513-961-2535
Lets start off with the funny stuff.
Took a afternoon nap, which I rarely do, and well, deep fried ice-cream before that made for a *very* interesting dream.
I start off riding my old horse Dusty across this wide open plain, into some estate. I dismount, and have a chance to examine myself and my surroundings. I'm apparently in a Black and white ruffly victorian-esque suit, and I follow a small cobblestone path into this GORGEOUS garden.
It became apparent to me then that it was an early morning air, as I took a breath of the cool, crisp air that was rich with the fragrance of the Jasmine, Hydrangea, and Roses growing everywhere.
I proceeded to go through a small rusty old gate, through a hedge maze, and into a smaller, but no less beautiful garden, with a table set for tea for two, and this beautiful, albeit very familiar girl standing a short distance away in a white dress that (now that I think about it) reminded me of Yukari's Paradise Kiss Ballgown. I called out....something (her name, I suppose) and looking ever so familiar, she starts walking my way (kitenfuego? parnsangel? fayefayechan?).....
Then stephen_poon ran in in his Jackie-Chan-Crossplaying-As-Chun-Li Cosplay, and starts trimming trimming hedges with his Spinning Bird Kick.
I woke up.
Wierdness, and damn you Stephen!
Heh, with that over, I get a call from Michelle, a close friend of mine.
Short backstory is that we'd met on a KoF board, met at UC, and hit it off quite well. We'd both lost touch with each other partly because of her finding a boyfriend, partly because of my random connage, but mostly because she changed. Alot. And it was all for her guy.
I was happy nonetheless. The fellow, to her, was everything she'd told me she'd wanted in a man. First and foremost, he was a UC boy, and A smart, handsome,boy with a healthy interest in anime and videogames to boot.
To say the least, I was taken aback slightly by the call out of the blue. All was not what it seemed, and her "totally perfect" boyfriend who she was "deliriously happy" about being with was a complete bastard.
*Recorded Phone Message I listened to. Punctuate every sentence by Michelle with a sob, or a short burst of tears*
Her: "I thought we had something special! I thought you liked me!! What was the matter?!"
Him: "Wrong. YOU thought we had something special. What did I like about you? You wre hot. What did I hate? Everything else. Quit calling me and leave me alone, bitch."
I wish I could say I was always in a tiny corner of her heart as a beacon of hope, but I suspect, more likely than not her calling me was a gamble. I wish I could say things'll go back to normal after this, but I dont see that hapenning. We've had too many bridges burn between us, and the times we had with each other, beign able to talk completely and freely about anything at all and nothing have been replaced mostly by awkward silences and polite greetings.
Ok, now you know the story, and I'd appreciate it that if nothing else, you read over the final portion of this post.
I've seen this hapen to far too many people, and I'd like to rest assured in the fact that I've had my say with my friends:
Relationships are wonderful, more often than not, life-changing experiences.
Love isnt something that you'll find at a specific locale, or in a specific time, or in any focused niche you'll direct your attention towards. As possibilities go, for any given moment, life's made of an infite number of those. When you make a choice you choose one possibility and its outcome, and end the other infinites.
What I mean to say is, when you direct your focus towards one niche such as:
"I want a UC boy!" "I want a cute cosplayer girl!" etc,etc.....
You're eliminating all your other options that come by. True, the other boy isnt a cosplayer at UC, but think about it, the guy who dosent cosplay and from NKU beside him might just be someone you could connect with on so many other levels.
Secondly, and pertaining to the earlier para:
For the love of the gods, DONT LIVE LONGING FOR AN IDEAL.
Ideals are just that, Paragons of perfection. We're human, and we can posess aspects of an ideal, but not the ideal itself. You're NEVER getting every little thing you want in a person. Thats something you'll just have to accept.
Lastly, and this is my most important point.
Its happenned with more than a few of you, and I know this is going to be old news for you, but...
Dont change. Please.
You're lovely, beautiful people. When you change the way you are, you're lying to yourself and the world. Sooner or later, you're going to have to deal with the consequences. If you're the sort who dosen't like, or dosen't prefer getting physical immediately into a relationship, then you're just not. If you're the sort that dosent like the needy-clingy factor in your relationship, then you're just not. If you're the sort that dresses one way, you dont have to change it to make yourself...exceedingly attractive to other because you're just not.
Change is something we cant avoid, and we change subconsciously, consciously, emotionally and physically every second we're alive. Some of us take changes for the better, and some for the worse. Its your own thing. Dont, Dont, Dont force change in yourself for others.
Your significant others, your lovers, your partners will have to accept you for who you are, for you'll both suffer when you're living lies.
That is all, and thanks for letting me have my say.
Shaz, Reporting Out!
P.S: My Cel phone is dead X.x. If you planned on calling me before monday, or I was going to call you, please do so on my home phone: 513-961-2535