Fuck. Just..fuck.
Okay, so, I finally told Charlie I knew about him and Diana. Here's how it went. Let me know what you think. Cause I certainly don't know what to think.
TranceOfMist (11:12:03 PM): Hm. Who knows, I guess. Still, I want to be on the lake. Lake. Love the lake. It's been so long since I've seen it, we haven't been able to plan our affair.
Badger11807 (11:13:38 PM): you probably won't be the only one
TranceOfMist (11:14:15 PM): *gasp* You mean the lake would CHEAT on me?
Badger11807 (11:14:11 PM): it is a big lake
TranceOfMist (11:14:45 PM): And you condone that, do you?
Badger11807 (11:14:39 PM): nope
TranceOfMist (11:15:12 PM): I see.
TranceOfMist (11:17:51 PM): So does that mean you're not fucking Diana, or just in this instance, between me and the lake, betraying someone is wrong?
Badger11807 (11:19:21 PM): what does that have to do with the conversation?
TranceOfMist (11:21:04 PM): I don't see how you can say you don't condone cheating, while you've been fucking some girl who has a boyfriend, and started right after you "took a break" with a girl you claimed to love.
Badger11807 (11:23:43 PM): i don't know what to say
TranceOfMist (11:26:37 PM): Exactly. I don't know what to say either. I'd never felt so awful in my entire life. It made me think you didn't love or care about, or respect me at all. And maybe you don't. Which is awful, because it made me doubt every wonderful thing in our relationship. I didn't understand how you could tell me you loved me and have sex with me and tell me how meaningful it was, then turn around and fuck some girl you've barely known a month and not feel guilty about it at all. Especially because she has a boyfriend, and I know how you used to feel about cheating. I never thought, that you of all people, could, or would, make me feel like my exboyfriend made me feel. I don'y understand at all.
Badger11807 (11:28:25 PM): thats why i wanted to take a break. i wasn't ready for as serious of a relationship that we were getting to
TranceOfMist (11:29:01 PM): You mean you wanted to take a break so you could fuck her.
Badger11807 (11:29:05 PM): no i wanted to take a break so i sisn't do something i would regret
TranceOfMist (11:29:40 PM): You mean so you wouldn't fuck her while we were still dating.
TranceOfMist (11:30:03 PM): How could you sit there and lie to me and tell me you were nothing more than friends and you'd never do anything with her. I mean, Jesus Charlie.
Badger11807 (11:30:18 PM): i didn't want to hurt you
TranceOfMist (11:31:22 PM): Well you've hurt me more than anyone ever has, so congrats. She has a boyfriend, what the hell is your problem? I mean, do you have NO morals left?
Badger11807 (11:31:30 PM): thats her deal
TranceOfMist (11:32:26 PM): No, it's yours. YOU'RE the one fucking her. If you cared at all you wouldn't because she's hurting somebody else. But I see how you're looking at. I mean, who cares right? You get to fuck someone.
Badger11807 (11:32:44 PM): ...
TranceOfMist (11:34:56 PM): What? What is it? I get told, a couple weeks after you tell me you want a break, that you're fucking another girl, who I had suspicions about in the first place? And I had to feel awful, and cry, and get hysterical and pissed, and wonder, I mean, sit there and feel awful about myself because you told me you loved me and I meant something to you and it was special when we had sex, and find out the moment you weren't with me you started fucking another girl? You have NO idea how that made me feel.
Badger11807 (11:36:17 PM): it didn't happen like that
TranceOfMist (11:37:21 PM): Oh, it didn't? Wait, technically, the way I heard it, it started two days after you got back to Oswego from break.
Badger11807 (11:37:51 PM): we had been having problems (even if they are mostly mine) for weeks
TranceOfMist (11:39:18 PM): It doesn't matter. The last time we had sex, which was "during the time you were having problems" you were the sweetest you've ever been to me and told me how much I meant to you. Do you lie to her too when you have sex?
Badger11807 (11:40:31 PM): i still care about you
TranceOfMist (11:41:07 PM): Clearly that's not the case. If you cared, you wouldn't be fucking her.
TranceOfMist (11:41:49 PM): I thought you cared about me. I thought you respectedme.
Badger11807 (11:41:36 PM): i do
TranceOfMist (11:42:11 PM): How can you say that?
TranceOfMist (11:42:52 PM): How can you say you care and respect me when you're having sex with another girl and don't feel any remorse?Badger11807 (11:43:34 PM): cuz thats how i feel
TranceOfMist (11:44:21 PM): I wonder if you feel anything.
Badger11807 (11:44:27 PM): i know what i feel
TranceOfMist (11:45:37 PM): Good for you. You go on feeling good about fucking a girl with a boyfriend and betraying the woman you say you love and not give a shit that you've fucked her up like no one else.
TranceOfMist (11:46:05 PM): I never ever thought that you would ever hurt me so badly.
TranceOfMist (11:46:09 PM): I just don't get it.
TranceOfMist (11:46:13 PM): I'm sorry, I don't understand.
Badger11807 (11:47:21 PM): that we lost something and that we were connecting like we used to
TranceOfMist (11:48:21 PM): ...What? That makes no sense, did you delete half the sentence?
Badger11807 (11:48:54 PM): just take out "that
TranceOfMist (11:49:21 PM): Who, you and me?
TranceOfMist (11:49:57 PM): I thought that's what we were going to do. Except you never talk to me anymore, or call, or seem to care about what's going on. It just hurt that you started having sex with someone else the moment we stopped dating.
Badger11807 (11:50:34 PM): i'm sorry
TranceOfMist (11:51:09 PM): If you're sorry you wouldn't have done it. You're sorry you got caught.
Badger11807 (11:51:52 PM): i probably would still have done it. i'm sorry i hurt you, i'm sorry it had to happen this way
Badger11807 (11:52:07 PM): whether you believe i still care about you or not
TranceOfMist (11:52:26 PM): I don't know what you want anymore. I thought you wanted to be friends and ease into something more again, except you stopped speaking to me, so I didn't even know what to think.
Badger11807 (11:53:00 PM): when did i ever not talk to you?
TranceOfMist (11:53:37 PM): You didn't speak to me for a week, last week.
TranceOfMist (11:53:45 PM): And then I had to be the first one to talk to you.
Badger11807 (11:53:46 PM): you didn't talk to me either
TranceOfMist (11:54:26 PM): That's how I work. I've been the one to start the conversation the last four times we've talked. That says to me you didn't want to bother, that you didn't care about talking to me one way or another.
TranceOfMist (11:54:36 PM): What do you want?
Badger11807 (11:55:35 PM): everytime we talk i start it
Badger11807 (11:55:45 PM): since we met i have initiated the conversation
TranceOfMist (11:56:12 PM): It's been me the last two weeks.
Badger11807 (11:56:11 PM): the first 2 weeks in 9 + months
TranceOfMist (11:57:03 PM): You're the one who broke up with me, so YOU'RE the one who needs to show me that you want to talk. Of course I want to talk to you. It's you who pulled away, so it's you who's got to come to me. I can only do so much. I can only have so much confidence.
TranceOfMist (11:57:35 PM): I try to meet you halfway.
TranceOfMist (11:57:44 PM): But once you pull away from me, how much can I do?
Badger11807 (11:58:09 PM): i don't know
TranceOfMist (11:58:36 PM): What is it that you want?
TranceOfMist (11:58:43 PM): Tell me, what do you want?
Badger11807 (12:00:21 AM): i don't know
TranceOfMist (12:02:45 AM): Then I don't know either. If you want to be be friends, let's actually BE friends, you know, like, speak to me? But I can't make you WANT to speak to me. I don't know if you care enough about me anymore to still want to start something up slowly again. I don't know what you want. Let me know when you know.
Badger11807 (12:03:02 AM): i want to be friends right now
Badger11807 (12:03:10 AM): i enjoy talking to you
TranceOfMist (12:03:44 AM): I like talking to you too.
TranceOfMist (12:08:10 AM): And I know that's what you want right now. *shrug* I guess we'll see what happens. Because I can forgive you. You think I'm that stupid? You're in college, of course you want to fuck some girl, that's what college kids do, and you probably thought, or perhaps thought, how much easier it would be if you could stop our relationship now and fuck a girl while I wasn't around, cause it'd be harder to end things better when I'm there. I can forgive, I suppose, and get over it, but it'll be hard for me to forget what you did and how it made me feel. I just trusted you so much, it's a really big blow. It'll probably just be better, now, to be like how we were at first, when we were friends, and, I dunno, yeah..what happens, happens I suppose.
Badger11807 (12:08:45 AM): thank you
TranceOfMist (12:10:30 AM): *arches eyebrows* You'd best be thanking me. I'd have every right never to speak to you again, after what you did, but I still like you and care about you, and I must be the most forgiving motherfucker around.
Badger11807 (12:11:03 AM): i know
Badger11807 (12:11:17 AM): i do honestly never meant nor wanted to hurt you
TranceOfMist (12:12:54 AM): Yeah...but you did. It was really bad...I mean, worse than my exboyfriend bad, and you know how bad that is. Joelle let me cry on her for hours and then made me sleep in her room on her bed while she took the floor so I wouldn't be alone. *face* It was really awful...I can even explain how much it hurt. It was pretty bad.
TranceOfMist (12:13:46 AM): By the way, dumbbutt, be careful who you tell your secrets to. Not that it would matter, cause it'd inevitably get back to me anyway. But now you've learned your lesson.
TranceOfMist (12:16:03 AM): Did you do anything with her while we were still dating? Tell me the truth.
Badger11807 (12:16:42 AM): we kissed once but i stopped anything
TranceOfMist (12:17:13 AM): ..You're so noble.
Badger11807 (12:17:25 AM): is the sarcasm neccesary
TranceOfMist (12:17:54 AM): Um, yes.
TranceOfMist (12:18:03 AM): I have every right to be the pissed off one here.
Badger11807 (12:18:28 AM): i know
TranceOfMist (12:19:43 AM): And while maybe you like the copious amounts of pictures of you two in every position imaginable, they're not exactly my favourite things, thanks. Fucking christ, you have no idea what you put me through.
Badger11807 (12:20:06 AM): i'm sorry
Badger11807 (12:20:25 AM): one of her friends Ashley. all she does is take pictures
TranceOfMist (12:20:57 AM): Yeah, um, I noticed.
Badger11807 (12:21:17 AM): and i don't know if you can tell but in a lot of them i'm kinda drunk
TranceOfMist (12:21:54 AM): It doesn't matter.
TranceOfMist (12:22:04 AM): I gave you everything I had, and it still wasn't enough.
Badger11807 (12:22:20 AM): i thought we were having a regular convo
TranceOfMist (12:23:09 AM): Sorry, didn't mean to revert back to it, but I'm emotional about it, and you can't blame me.
Badger11807 (12:23:03 AM): i know
TranceOfMist (12:24:08 AM): I mean, I guess your whole "If I like a girl, I won't do anything about it, cause I'll remember I have something better" only works in theory when you're not actually at college, huh? I just...it hurts so bad, wondering why I'm not enough.
TranceOfMist (12:25:04 AM): I gave you everything. I was such a good girlfriend. And at the first sign of attraction to someone else, you decided I wasn't worth it anymore.
Badger11807 (12:25:24 AM): we were having problems
TranceOfMist (12:26:14 AM): No, actually, I pinpointed the exact day when you suddenly pulled away, and it was about a day after you met her.
Badger11807 (12:26:23 AM): we couldn't even have a conversation
TranceOfMist (12:26:54 AM): You stopped trying.
Badger11807 (12:26:54 AM): we would sit there in scilence
Badger11807 (12:27:08 AM): silence
TranceOfMist (12:27:47 AM): So to fix the problem, you thought the best course of action would be to take a break and fuck another girl?Badger11807 (12:27:57 AM): i decided i wanted a break
Badger11807 (12:28:00 AM): then she came along
TranceOfMist (12:28:39 AM): No. She came along before that. She kissed her while we were still dating, clearly she entered the picture much before the break.
TranceOfMist (12:28:47 AM): You*
Badger11807 (12:28:42 AM): but we were already in trouble
TranceOfMist (12:29:06 AM): And that makes it okay?!
Badger11807 (12:29:34 AM): i don't know
Badger11807 (12:29:38 AM): i have to go to be
Badger11807 (12:29:38 AM): d
Badger11807 (12:29:44 AM): i got to get up in the morning
TranceOfMist (12:30:57 AM): There's no reason for cheating. Absolutely none. So we were having problems. We were still in a relationship, and you kissed another girl. You betrayed me. *shrug* So no, it's not okay.
TranceOfMist (12:30:59 AM): Goodnight.
Badger11807 (12:31:25 AM): i don't know how you are going to take this but you need to know.
Badger11807 (12:31:36 AM): it was never just sex with her
Badger11807 (12:31:39 AM): we talked
Badger11807 (12:31:55 AM): we spent almost everynight just hanging out wether their were other people there or not
TranceOfMist (12:32:27 AM): Yeah, I'm aware of that. I know everything, remember?
Badger11807 (12:32:13 AM): i'm sorry
Badger11807 (12:32:21 AM): huh?
TranceOfMist (12:32:51 AM): I know everything, or have you forgotten?
Badger11807 (12:32:50 AM): what do you know?
TranceOfMist (12:33:13 AM): Everything.
Badger11807 (12:33:00 AM): explain
TranceOfMist (12:33:39 AM): ..I'm alluding to the joke we used to have about me knowing everything. Why, is there something else you haven't told me?
Badger11807 (12:34:03 AM): i don't know the way you responded that you knew
TranceOfMist (12:34:29 AM): Well of course I knew that.
Badger11807 (12:34:21 AM): i didn't want to tell you that so when you said you knew i was...
TranceOfMist (12:35:50 AM): Well there are a bunch of pictures of you just hanging out, and you were gone every night while I would see Dustin on. I figured you were with her all the time. You know, abandoning your other friends for a chick you'd met a month ago. I knew you weren't JUST having sex with her, jesus, I'm not stupid. I know everything.
Badger11807 (12:36:03 AM): ok i got to go to sleep
Badger11807 (12:36:22 AM): i'll talk to you later (kinda like i abandoned everyone for you)
Badger11807 (12:36:23 AM): bye
TranceOfMist (12:37:25 AM): ....You're a hypocite. You fed me all this stuff about how we wouldn't hang out every day and you needed friend time and I completely agreed, and then you met her and did exactly what you told me you didn't want to do.
Badger11807 (12:37:33 AM): i still chilled with dustin
Badger11807 (12:37:39 AM): and played ccards with charlie
Badger11807 (12:37:45 AM): and now i really have to go to bed
TranceOfMist (12:38:15 AM): Goodnight.
Badger11807 (12:38:57 AM): i'll talk to you later
Badger11807 signed off at 12:39:18 AM.
TranceOfMist (11:12:03 PM): Hm. Who knows, I guess. Still, I want to be on the lake. Lake. Love the lake. It's been so long since I've seen it, we haven't been able to plan our affair.
Badger11807 (11:13:38 PM): you probably won't be the only one
TranceOfMist (11:14:15 PM): *gasp* You mean the lake would CHEAT on me?
Badger11807 (11:14:11 PM): it is a big lake
TranceOfMist (11:14:45 PM): And you condone that, do you?
Badger11807 (11:14:39 PM): nope
TranceOfMist (11:15:12 PM): I see.
TranceOfMist (11:17:51 PM): So does that mean you're not fucking Diana, or just in this instance, between me and the lake, betraying someone is wrong?
Badger11807 (11:19:21 PM): what does that have to do with the conversation?
TranceOfMist (11:21:04 PM): I don't see how you can say you don't condone cheating, while you've been fucking some girl who has a boyfriend, and started right after you "took a break" with a girl you claimed to love.
Badger11807 (11:23:43 PM): i don't know what to say
TranceOfMist (11:26:37 PM): Exactly. I don't know what to say either. I'd never felt so awful in my entire life. It made me think you didn't love or care about, or respect me at all. And maybe you don't. Which is awful, because it made me doubt every wonderful thing in our relationship. I didn't understand how you could tell me you loved me and have sex with me and tell me how meaningful it was, then turn around and fuck some girl you've barely known a month and not feel guilty about it at all. Especially because she has a boyfriend, and I know how you used to feel about cheating. I never thought, that you of all people, could, or would, make me feel like my exboyfriend made me feel. I don'y understand at all.
Badger11807 (11:28:25 PM): thats why i wanted to take a break. i wasn't ready for as serious of a relationship that we were getting to
TranceOfMist (11:29:01 PM): You mean you wanted to take a break so you could fuck her.
Badger11807 (11:29:05 PM): no i wanted to take a break so i sisn't do something i would regret
TranceOfMist (11:29:40 PM): You mean so you wouldn't fuck her while we were still dating.
TranceOfMist (11:30:03 PM): How could you sit there and lie to me and tell me you were nothing more than friends and you'd never do anything with her. I mean, Jesus Charlie.
Badger11807 (11:30:18 PM): i didn't want to hurt you
TranceOfMist (11:31:22 PM): Well you've hurt me more than anyone ever has, so congrats. She has a boyfriend, what the hell is your problem? I mean, do you have NO morals left?
Badger11807 (11:31:30 PM): thats her deal
TranceOfMist (11:32:26 PM): No, it's yours. YOU'RE the one fucking her. If you cared at all you wouldn't because she's hurting somebody else. But I see how you're looking at. I mean, who cares right? You get to fuck someone.
Badger11807 (11:32:44 PM): ...
TranceOfMist (11:34:56 PM): What? What is it? I get told, a couple weeks after you tell me you want a break, that you're fucking another girl, who I had suspicions about in the first place? And I had to feel awful, and cry, and get hysterical and pissed, and wonder, I mean, sit there and feel awful about myself because you told me you loved me and I meant something to you and it was special when we had sex, and find out the moment you weren't with me you started fucking another girl? You have NO idea how that made me feel.
Badger11807 (11:36:17 PM): it didn't happen like that
TranceOfMist (11:37:21 PM): Oh, it didn't? Wait, technically, the way I heard it, it started two days after you got back to Oswego from break.
Badger11807 (11:37:51 PM): we had been having problems (even if they are mostly mine) for weeks
TranceOfMist (11:39:18 PM): It doesn't matter. The last time we had sex, which was "during the time you were having problems" you were the sweetest you've ever been to me and told me how much I meant to you. Do you lie to her too when you have sex?
Badger11807 (11:40:31 PM): i still care about you
TranceOfMist (11:41:07 PM): Clearly that's not the case. If you cared, you wouldn't be fucking her.
TranceOfMist (11:41:49 PM): I thought you cared about me. I thought you respectedme.
Badger11807 (11:41:36 PM): i do
TranceOfMist (11:42:11 PM): How can you say that?
TranceOfMist (11:42:52 PM): How can you say you care and respect me when you're having sex with another girl and don't feel any remorse?Badger11807 (11:43:34 PM): cuz thats how i feel
TranceOfMist (11:44:21 PM): I wonder if you feel anything.
Badger11807 (11:44:27 PM): i know what i feel
TranceOfMist (11:45:37 PM): Good for you. You go on feeling good about fucking a girl with a boyfriend and betraying the woman you say you love and not give a shit that you've fucked her up like no one else.
TranceOfMist (11:46:05 PM): I never ever thought that you would ever hurt me so badly.
TranceOfMist (11:46:09 PM): I just don't get it.
TranceOfMist (11:46:13 PM): I'm sorry, I don't understand.
Badger11807 (11:47:21 PM): that we lost something and that we were connecting like we used to
TranceOfMist (11:48:21 PM): ...What? That makes no sense, did you delete half the sentence?
Badger11807 (11:48:54 PM): just take out "that
TranceOfMist (11:49:21 PM): Who, you and me?
TranceOfMist (11:49:57 PM): I thought that's what we were going to do. Except you never talk to me anymore, or call, or seem to care about what's going on. It just hurt that you started having sex with someone else the moment we stopped dating.
Badger11807 (11:50:34 PM): i'm sorry
TranceOfMist (11:51:09 PM): If you're sorry you wouldn't have done it. You're sorry you got caught.
Badger11807 (11:51:52 PM): i probably would still have done it. i'm sorry i hurt you, i'm sorry it had to happen this way
Badger11807 (11:52:07 PM): whether you believe i still care about you or not
TranceOfMist (11:52:26 PM): I don't know what you want anymore. I thought you wanted to be friends and ease into something more again, except you stopped speaking to me, so I didn't even know what to think.
Badger11807 (11:53:00 PM): when did i ever not talk to you?
TranceOfMist (11:53:37 PM): You didn't speak to me for a week, last week.
TranceOfMist (11:53:45 PM): And then I had to be the first one to talk to you.
Badger11807 (11:53:46 PM): you didn't talk to me either
TranceOfMist (11:54:26 PM): That's how I work. I've been the one to start the conversation the last four times we've talked. That says to me you didn't want to bother, that you didn't care about talking to me one way or another.
TranceOfMist (11:54:36 PM): What do you want?
Badger11807 (11:55:35 PM): everytime we talk i start it
Badger11807 (11:55:45 PM): since we met i have initiated the conversation
TranceOfMist (11:56:12 PM): It's been me the last two weeks.
Badger11807 (11:56:11 PM): the first 2 weeks in 9 + months
TranceOfMist (11:57:03 PM): You're the one who broke up with me, so YOU'RE the one who needs to show me that you want to talk. Of course I want to talk to you. It's you who pulled away, so it's you who's got to come to me. I can only do so much. I can only have so much confidence.
TranceOfMist (11:57:35 PM): I try to meet you halfway.
TranceOfMist (11:57:44 PM): But once you pull away from me, how much can I do?
Badger11807 (11:58:09 PM): i don't know
TranceOfMist (11:58:36 PM): What is it that you want?
TranceOfMist (11:58:43 PM): Tell me, what do you want?
Badger11807 (12:00:21 AM): i don't know
TranceOfMist (12:02:45 AM): Then I don't know either. If you want to be be friends, let's actually BE friends, you know, like, speak to me? But I can't make you WANT to speak to me. I don't know if you care enough about me anymore to still want to start something up slowly again. I don't know what you want. Let me know when you know.
Badger11807 (12:03:02 AM): i want to be friends right now
Badger11807 (12:03:10 AM): i enjoy talking to you
TranceOfMist (12:03:44 AM): I like talking to you too.
TranceOfMist (12:08:10 AM): And I know that's what you want right now. *shrug* I guess we'll see what happens. Because I can forgive you. You think I'm that stupid? You're in college, of course you want to fuck some girl, that's what college kids do, and you probably thought, or perhaps thought, how much easier it would be if you could stop our relationship now and fuck a girl while I wasn't around, cause it'd be harder to end things better when I'm there. I can forgive, I suppose, and get over it, but it'll be hard for me to forget what you did and how it made me feel. I just trusted you so much, it's a really big blow. It'll probably just be better, now, to be like how we were at first, when we were friends, and, I dunno, yeah..what happens, happens I suppose.
Badger11807 (12:08:45 AM): thank you
TranceOfMist (12:10:30 AM): *arches eyebrows* You'd best be thanking me. I'd have every right never to speak to you again, after what you did, but I still like you and care about you, and I must be the most forgiving motherfucker around.
Badger11807 (12:11:03 AM): i know
Badger11807 (12:11:17 AM): i do honestly never meant nor wanted to hurt you
TranceOfMist (12:12:54 AM): Yeah...but you did. It was really bad...I mean, worse than my exboyfriend bad, and you know how bad that is. Joelle let me cry on her for hours and then made me sleep in her room on her bed while she took the floor so I wouldn't be alone. *face* It was really awful...I can even explain how much it hurt. It was pretty bad.
TranceOfMist (12:13:46 AM): By the way, dumbbutt, be careful who you tell your secrets to. Not that it would matter, cause it'd inevitably get back to me anyway. But now you've learned your lesson.
TranceOfMist (12:16:03 AM): Did you do anything with her while we were still dating? Tell me the truth.
Badger11807 (12:16:42 AM): we kissed once but i stopped anything
TranceOfMist (12:17:13 AM): ..You're so noble.
Badger11807 (12:17:25 AM): is the sarcasm neccesary
TranceOfMist (12:17:54 AM): Um, yes.
TranceOfMist (12:18:03 AM): I have every right to be the pissed off one here.
Badger11807 (12:18:28 AM): i know
TranceOfMist (12:19:43 AM): And while maybe you like the copious amounts of pictures of you two in every position imaginable, they're not exactly my favourite things, thanks. Fucking christ, you have no idea what you put me through.
Badger11807 (12:20:06 AM): i'm sorry
Badger11807 (12:20:25 AM): one of her friends Ashley. all she does is take pictures
TranceOfMist (12:20:57 AM): Yeah, um, I noticed.
Badger11807 (12:21:17 AM): and i don't know if you can tell but in a lot of them i'm kinda drunk
TranceOfMist (12:21:54 AM): It doesn't matter.
TranceOfMist (12:22:04 AM): I gave you everything I had, and it still wasn't enough.
Badger11807 (12:22:20 AM): i thought we were having a regular convo
TranceOfMist (12:23:09 AM): Sorry, didn't mean to revert back to it, but I'm emotional about it, and you can't blame me.
Badger11807 (12:23:03 AM): i know
TranceOfMist (12:24:08 AM): I mean, I guess your whole "If I like a girl, I won't do anything about it, cause I'll remember I have something better" only works in theory when you're not actually at college, huh? I just...it hurts so bad, wondering why I'm not enough.
TranceOfMist (12:25:04 AM): I gave you everything. I was such a good girlfriend. And at the first sign of attraction to someone else, you decided I wasn't worth it anymore.
Badger11807 (12:25:24 AM): we were having problems
TranceOfMist (12:26:14 AM): No, actually, I pinpointed the exact day when you suddenly pulled away, and it was about a day after you met her.
Badger11807 (12:26:23 AM): we couldn't even have a conversation
TranceOfMist (12:26:54 AM): You stopped trying.
Badger11807 (12:26:54 AM): we would sit there in scilence
Badger11807 (12:27:08 AM): silence
TranceOfMist (12:27:47 AM): So to fix the problem, you thought the best course of action would be to take a break and fuck another girl?Badger11807 (12:27:57 AM): i decided i wanted a break
Badger11807 (12:28:00 AM): then she came along
TranceOfMist (12:28:39 AM): No. She came along before that. She kissed her while we were still dating, clearly she entered the picture much before the break.
TranceOfMist (12:28:47 AM): You*
Badger11807 (12:28:42 AM): but we were already in trouble
TranceOfMist (12:29:06 AM): And that makes it okay?!
Badger11807 (12:29:34 AM): i don't know
Badger11807 (12:29:38 AM): i have to go to be
Badger11807 (12:29:38 AM): d
Badger11807 (12:29:44 AM): i got to get up in the morning
TranceOfMist (12:30:57 AM): There's no reason for cheating. Absolutely none. So we were having problems. We were still in a relationship, and you kissed another girl. You betrayed me. *shrug* So no, it's not okay.
TranceOfMist (12:30:59 AM): Goodnight.
Badger11807 (12:31:25 AM): i don't know how you are going to take this but you need to know.
Badger11807 (12:31:36 AM): it was never just sex with her
Badger11807 (12:31:39 AM): we talked
Badger11807 (12:31:55 AM): we spent almost everynight just hanging out wether their were other people there or not
TranceOfMist (12:32:27 AM): Yeah, I'm aware of that. I know everything, remember?
Badger11807 (12:32:13 AM): i'm sorry
Badger11807 (12:32:21 AM): huh?
TranceOfMist (12:32:51 AM): I know everything, or have you forgotten?
Badger11807 (12:32:50 AM): what do you know?
TranceOfMist (12:33:13 AM): Everything.
Badger11807 (12:33:00 AM): explain
TranceOfMist (12:33:39 AM): ..I'm alluding to the joke we used to have about me knowing everything. Why, is there something else you haven't told me?
Badger11807 (12:34:03 AM): i don't know the way you responded that you knew
TranceOfMist (12:34:29 AM): Well of course I knew that.
Badger11807 (12:34:21 AM): i didn't want to tell you that so when you said you knew i was...
TranceOfMist (12:35:50 AM): Well there are a bunch of pictures of you just hanging out, and you were gone every night while I would see Dustin on. I figured you were with her all the time. You know, abandoning your other friends for a chick you'd met a month ago. I knew you weren't JUST having sex with her, jesus, I'm not stupid. I know everything.
Badger11807 (12:36:03 AM): ok i got to go to sleep
Badger11807 (12:36:22 AM): i'll talk to you later (kinda like i abandoned everyone for you)
Badger11807 (12:36:23 AM): bye
TranceOfMist (12:37:25 AM): ....You're a hypocite. You fed me all this stuff about how we wouldn't hang out every day and you needed friend time and I completely agreed, and then you met her and did exactly what you told me you didn't want to do.
Badger11807 (12:37:33 AM): i still chilled with dustin
Badger11807 (12:37:39 AM): and played ccards with charlie
Badger11807 (12:37:45 AM): and now i really have to go to bed
TranceOfMist (12:38:15 AM): Goodnight.
Badger11807 (12:38:57 AM): i'll talk to you later
Badger11807 signed off at 12:39:18 AM.