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I'm so mad. I don't understand. How come everything I say to you means nothing. I could tell you that I hate you and you would have no problem with that. That makes me so angry. How come everything I do has no effect on you. Not a single thing I do could possibly make you realize why I'm so mean to you all the time. You always think I'm giving you these looks, but I'm not and I always run away when you say "Hi" or I hit you. I just need to get away everytime and the last thing I would want to give you is a dirty look. I'm sorry I'm not the same person I was 7 months ago. I don't know what changed. I wish I did, maybe it was 'cause you left me. I'm not so sure. Everything sort of went downhill after that. You're the only person who I really let get to know me. I'm kind of ashamed that I did that now. You know more than I'd like you to and that upsets me. You know when gets me angry and you just do every one of those things. They make me want to cry. I don't understand why we can't have a conversation without arguing, I really don't. I just wish this all would end. I mean, you moved on.. how come I can't?