I give up...

[autumnsinns]

I've just made a decision to let him talk to whatever girls he wants on line.. send as many inappropriate "sweet" text messages that he wants.. go visit internet girls if he feels so inclined because I don't want to waste anymore energy on wondering if he is or if he isn't... I can't do it anymore..

I spent the entire day there sleeping.. exhausted by thought and physically..

I still want to believe that that text message wasn't for him.. but I find it harder to believe it each time I go over it in my head .. so fuck it.

I dont care anymore if he does or if he doesnt ..

I give up ..