..Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person..
..and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much it's like choking down the embers of a great place.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions..
I think about a year or more ago. And see how much things have changed. I go to my old LJ synthetictears ..and it brings back alot of memories. The Tony era has ended. He choose to not be friends anymore.. and not work things out. I'm taking it okay now.. but give me awhile and I'll be crying like I was, but 100 times worse when he broke up with me; or yelled at me; or told me I was a fucking retard. I love that boy to death. It will be hard to stop feeling this deep for him. Hard to get over all these emotions. This is it though. I believe this is truly the end. And I'm overwhelmed, scared, sad..
..and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down.. come down..
..I cherish you.. I cherish you.
Just say that you would do the same for me..
just say you would do the same..
just say you would do the same for me..
If you ever read this Tony. Remember everything good we had. And forget about the bad. I made some mistakes and I know.. and I'll regret that forever. If you ever miss me.. listen to our song. Glassjaw.. or From Autumn to Ashes. Close your eyes and dream of me. Because I shall do the same for you. Maybe someday in the future we can be together. But right now just isn't the time. And I wish it could be. I really wish. Good luck with the band. Friends. Jobs. College. Everything in life. Have fun with your first show @Wayne's party. You guys will be amazing I know it. To bad I won't be able to witness it. You're a good person. You deserve good things. I just hope one day you'll forgive me. I love you boo. You'll always have a place in my heart..
..For as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes..
Goodbye Tony &everyone.