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Yesterday was the first day that I felt winter. There was that deeper chill in the air, a wind that forced me into my coat even in the warmest part of the afternoon and seemed to be tearing the last of the autumn-shaded leaves from the trees. It brought me a bit of sadness knowing that autumn is nearing it's end and soon the icy-white winter will be upon us...
It also brought me worry because I know that faeryshaman will be here in a couple of weeks and she has never experienced winter as we have here. She says she's looking forward to the snow but I'm worried that the bitter cold, biting winds, long days spent inside, and lack of green vegetation might really wear on her. I know this isn't a very great place to visit but I want her to enjoy her time here and find happiness with me in this place until we can get everything arranged to return to Tasmania together.
I'm still feeling quite down from missing her, though I am finally able to sleep through the night now. I have to keep telling myself "it's only two more weeks"...
I'm also saddened because this wonderful connection and bliss I've found with faeryshaman seems to be causing pandara a great deal of pain. I really don't like hurting anyone, or even being involved in a situation that hurts someone, but once again it seems I'm finding myself right there. Perhaps it's unavoidable. There is always going to be hurt feelings when one relationship ends and the people involved move on to the next phases of their lives and new relationships. But still...
It also brought me worry because I know that faeryshaman will be here in a couple of weeks and she has never experienced winter as we have here. She says she's looking forward to the snow but I'm worried that the bitter cold, biting winds, long days spent inside, and lack of green vegetation might really wear on her. I know this isn't a very great place to visit but I want her to enjoy her time here and find happiness with me in this place until we can get everything arranged to return to Tasmania together.
I'm still feeling quite down from missing her, though I am finally able to sleep through the night now. I have to keep telling myself "it's only two more weeks"...
I'm also saddened because this wonderful connection and bliss I've found with faeryshaman seems to be causing pandara a great deal of pain. I really don't like hurting anyone, or even being involved in a situation that hurts someone, but once again it seems I'm finding myself right there. Perhaps it's unavoidable. There is always going to be hurt feelings when one relationship ends and the people involved move on to the next phases of their lives and new relationships. But still...