Decisions
This morning I woke early and, as Nikki and her friends who were visiting (Fee, Crystal, and Chris) were still sleeping, I decided to spend some time consulting the tarot for some guidance and reflection. I did a large reading that seemed to hold a great deal of wisdom. Then I decided to go outside for a while. I walked barefoot through the trees, connecting with the peacefullness around me, the wet grass and mossy earth beneath my toes, the tiny fish in the stream, the birds flying about the branches...
I spent a long time reflecting on all the things happening in my life, the changes and possibilities stretching out in front of me. I thought a lot about my dreams, my desires, my values. I reflected on the life I have and the life that I want. And there, in the stillness amidst the trees, it all suddenly came clear.
I decided that come what may, I need to trust the Universe and the power of love. I decided that I'm ready, ready at the core of myself, to gather all my resources, take a leap of faith, and go for my deepest heart's desire.
I decided that in October I'll resign from my job and travel one-way to Tasmania to start a new life together with my deepest heart's love.
The move to a new apartment becomes more of an obstacle than a help, so all of those arrangements will need to be cancelled. The task becomes getting rid of everything possible and placing what I would like to eventually have in Tasmania in storage for later shipping. I also need to consolidate as much of my financial resources as possible since I won't be able to work for quite some time after reaching my destination and I'll need to have as much as possible to live off of in the interrum.
Nikki is looking for a job and planning to rent her currently-vacant grandmother's house, possibly with some of her friends who are also looking for a place. She has come to see the need for her to be independent, to live on her own and learn to be self-sufficient. This seems to me a much better plan than our earlier one of her taking over the new apartment if and when I was able to make the permanent move sometime after the turn of the year.
I am feeling very excited and intensely pleased by this new path that I've chosen. I also feel somewhat frightened. My dear friend Joe has pledged to be my safety net, promising me the option of returning to Indiana and living with him until I can get back on my feet in the event that everything goes horribly horribly wrong, and althought I don't think or feel that will be necessary, it is a great relief to know such support is there. In the end, I am feeling very confident, very hopeful, and very happy with this course of action.
In my soul, I am at peace. I know that I am following my destiny...
I spent a long time reflecting on all the things happening in my life, the changes and possibilities stretching out in front of me. I thought a lot about my dreams, my desires, my values. I reflected on the life I have and the life that I want. And there, in the stillness amidst the trees, it all suddenly came clear.
I decided that come what may, I need to trust the Universe and the power of love. I decided that I'm ready, ready at the core of myself, to gather all my resources, take a leap of faith, and go for my deepest heart's desire.
I decided that in October I'll resign from my job and travel one-way to Tasmania to start a new life together with my deepest heart's love.
The move to a new apartment becomes more of an obstacle than a help, so all of those arrangements will need to be cancelled. The task becomes getting rid of everything possible and placing what I would like to eventually have in Tasmania in storage for later shipping. I also need to consolidate as much of my financial resources as possible since I won't be able to work for quite some time after reaching my destination and I'll need to have as much as possible to live off of in the interrum.
Nikki is looking for a job and planning to rent her currently-vacant grandmother's house, possibly with some of her friends who are also looking for a place. She has come to see the need for her to be independent, to live on her own and learn to be self-sufficient. This seems to me a much better plan than our earlier one of her taking over the new apartment if and when I was able to make the permanent move sometime after the turn of the year.
I am feeling very excited and intensely pleased by this new path that I've chosen. I also feel somewhat frightened. My dear friend Joe has pledged to be my safety net, promising me the option of returning to Indiana and living with him until I can get back on my feet in the event that everything goes horribly horribly wrong, and althought I don't think or feel that will be necessary, it is a great relief to know such support is there. In the end, I am feeling very confident, very hopeful, and very happy with this course of action.
In my soul, I am at peace. I know that I am following my destiny...