my secret to sleep
it's nothing new to say i have problems with sleep. my family recently reminded me that this has been a relatively consistent problem in my life. i wish i could say that after 27 years i've learned to deal with it, but i fear it will always remain a thorn in my side.
some people slip into sleep effortlessly. i see this happen all of the time and it's fascinating - i want to study it and learn the secrets behind such an easy transition. and it's so ironic that i married a narcoleptic, with the polar opposite sleep issues. it's that much more difficult for me to fall asleep when i'm next to someone who is already in dream land within ten seconds of landing in bed.
but here's the secret: he's my most potent weapon in the sleep battle. being close to him and just hearing him speak - the topic doesn't even matter, it's just the tone of his voice - lulls me to a place of comfort and quiet. my brain slowly shuts down and stops babbling and worrying and stressing. last night he did this for me, and i realized how much it reminds me of what my mom used to do for me as a young child, when she rocked me and read or sang me to sleep each night.
when i'm with someone i love and i'm feeling that love coming from them and surrounding me, it's like a protective cocoon. my comfort in those moments is effortless, and with such peace sleep is able to find me. more so than any pill has ever helped, i now see that this one of my keys to the elusive world of sleeping. it's been right in front of me the entire time and i was too anxious to even see it.
love can move mountains, i tell ya...especially his.
some people slip into sleep effortlessly. i see this happen all of the time and it's fascinating - i want to study it and learn the secrets behind such an easy transition. and it's so ironic that i married a narcoleptic, with the polar opposite sleep issues. it's that much more difficult for me to fall asleep when i'm next to someone who is already in dream land within ten seconds of landing in bed.
but here's the secret: he's my most potent weapon in the sleep battle. being close to him and just hearing him speak - the topic doesn't even matter, it's just the tone of his voice - lulls me to a place of comfort and quiet. my brain slowly shuts down and stops babbling and worrying and stressing. last night he did this for me, and i realized how much it reminds me of what my mom used to do for me as a young child, when she rocked me and read or sang me to sleep each night.
when i'm with someone i love and i'm feeling that love coming from them and surrounding me, it's like a protective cocoon. my comfort in those moments is effortless, and with such peace sleep is able to find me. more so than any pill has ever helped, i now see that this one of my keys to the elusive world of sleeping. it's been right in front of me the entire time and i was too anxious to even see it.
love can move mountains, i tell ya...especially his.