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I waited to write something until I calmed down. I don't think I have calmed down much but I've tried to digest all the utter crap going on and I still can't figure out what to do with my anger and dissappointment. I knew that Americans were generally pretty stupid as evident in popular music and movies they flock to see, but that's just entertainment. I thought they wouldn't stand for a lying, idiot, war president who does nothing for the economy or health care or for those less fortunate.
Lately I feel like my life is a bit stagnant. I feel I don't have alot of possibilities, nothing really grande to hope for. I remember when I was in my 20s and feeling like I had alot more options out there. I liked that feeling that I had choices and I could choose a path and go somewhere great. I knew that I could be fulfilled.
After the election I wanted to escape. I did think I should move. I want to be around people that think like I do. In Travis county it is nice but it's like we're trapped, surrounded by redneck hillbillies. I had a tiny bit of hope that people were not THAT dim, but they ARE! How fucking horrifying. That is so dissappointing to find out they are so easily brainwashed by gay marriage fears (oh no! the gays!) and their dear religious bush will protect them from the boogey man terrorists.
I tried to look around and find out how the military voted. I think they wanted to keep bush in office. I bet their families did too. That just makes me feel no support for them. If they WANT to support the president that got them into this war for nothing, so he could make more fucking money - well the FUCK! I can't see myself supporting the troops now. Even my cousin who decided to make a military career for himself and just now got shipped off. I think this war will mean ALOT more death and this time I don't care so much. This is what the people here wanted so they can have it. I care more about the innocent people killed there than our troops now. I feel horrible saying this but I just hate that people here didn't vote to try and get us out of this war.
I guess if I move then I'm just leaving a more condensed group of conservatives here. Maybe they'll eat each other? I just feel like there is nothing that is going to be left here for me. No hope of anything good that can come of this. I believe he will dare to appoint ultra conservative judges and I'm sure he feels like god is behind him and has helped to elect him.
My friend Eric says this should just make me take to the streets! Become an activist again. I might do that. I just hate being the wacko protesting liberal that everyone dismisses. I want people to open their eyes tho! I guess I have alot more thinking to do. I think the next fucked up and shitty move bush makes will probably determine alot for me and what I choose to do with this pent up anger and hatred.
Lately I feel like my life is a bit stagnant. I feel I don't have alot of possibilities, nothing really grande to hope for. I remember when I was in my 20s and feeling like I had alot more options out there. I liked that feeling that I had choices and I could choose a path and go somewhere great. I knew that I could be fulfilled.
After the election I wanted to escape. I did think I should move. I want to be around people that think like I do. In Travis county it is nice but it's like we're trapped, surrounded by redneck hillbillies. I had a tiny bit of hope that people were not THAT dim, but they ARE! How fucking horrifying. That is so dissappointing to find out they are so easily brainwashed by gay marriage fears (oh no! the gays!) and their dear religious bush will protect them from the boogey man terrorists.
I tried to look around and find out how the military voted. I think they wanted to keep bush in office. I bet their families did too. That just makes me feel no support for them. If they WANT to support the president that got them into this war for nothing, so he could make more fucking money - well the FUCK! I can't see myself supporting the troops now. Even my cousin who decided to make a military career for himself and just now got shipped off. I think this war will mean ALOT more death and this time I don't care so much. This is what the people here wanted so they can have it. I care more about the innocent people killed there than our troops now. I feel horrible saying this but I just hate that people here didn't vote to try and get us out of this war.
I guess if I move then I'm just leaving a more condensed group of conservatives here. Maybe they'll eat each other? I just feel like there is nothing that is going to be left here for me. No hope of anything good that can come of this. I believe he will dare to appoint ultra conservative judges and I'm sure he feels like god is behind him and has helped to elect him.
My friend Eric says this should just make me take to the streets! Become an activist again. I might do that. I just hate being the wacko protesting liberal that everyone dismisses. I want people to open their eyes tho! I guess I have alot more thinking to do. I think the next fucked up and shitty move bush makes will probably determine alot for me and what I choose to do with this pent up anger and hatred.