Sorry to God
I was just sitting here weeping for the fact that I am inept at having meaningful relationships. I want very badly a companion. To one day soon be married and settled. I don't even care about a wedding. And while I was weeping I started apologizing to God for being selfish and weeping for myself. Some people are just meant to be alone in life and I supposed that I am one of those people. Some people are very easily involved. It is amazing to me when someone I know gets married or even has more than one date. But who am I to be upset? I am the friend. I am the one in the shadows that helps everyone else out. I play an important role and who am I to try to mess that up? I am just like family, no more, no less. Don't give me another thought because I wouldn't know what to do with it if you did.