I keep waking up and falling asleep and having nightmares about this surgery. I was ok with it up until bedtime last night. I gained some weight so maybe they won't want to do it. The general anesthesia maybe more than i can handle. I don't want to wake up and throw up. Am I ready for the world of pain i'm about to be in? Am i ready for four drains ( Read more... )

(i actually wrote this yesterday, progress ( Read more... )

For the first time in my adolescent AND adult life, I am at a healthy weight, 135lbs. I checked three different weight calculators and the BMI to be sure. I'm still kinda high on the BMI, but whatever. A lot of this is muscle. I could beat people up with my lean muscle mass. I want to stop somewhere between 115-120lbs, but we'll see. As long as my ( Read more... )

I got my orientation package from the Universty yesterday and set up my online account. So I have an official university e-mail address now (and I'll give it to you if you want, just lemme know) and I signed up for orientation in July. And today, I sent in my application and application fee to this gorgeous apartment Imma be living in in ( Read more... )

is tomorrow. or today.

i'm going to cry.

my god...

SUNSCREEN!!!!

i feel super fantastic ( Read more... )

thought I'd take this opportunity (since music class was cancelled again so I've got nothing to do) to try and summarize the past few days. I'm not sure I can. But I'll try.

Monday: Picked up Kanon from Union. His train was like six hours late. I definitely empathized. Amtrak hates ( Read more... )

If you read my journal still, reply to this with a comment. It can be a dot, the letter D, whatever, I don't care. I just wanna get an idea of my audience, if I have any. Although my journal is not and never has been audience centered, it would help determine whether or not I need to stop making so many entries private as opposed to public. If no ( Read more... )

i miss having a life. i did not realize that going back to school=negation of life. sometimes it seems like a fair trade, but other times i miss having TIME ( Read more... )

In 2005, I resolved to fucking weight this time.

AND I DID IT.

well, technically I'm still doing it.

AND I'M ALMOST DOING IT.

100 lbs lost

pics coming soon.