*sighs*
Had the day off work so I could go with my brother, mum, brother's girlfriend, mum and dad to the Christmas Gift Fair in Birmingham, which as for the last two years was fun, though crowded, and relieved me of a fair portion of my pay packet. Still, payday today, so I should still have enough left for Bruges next month.
Of course, this leads me to my problem.
I have a phobia, a strange/humiliating/annoying phobia - a fear of escalators. No doubt connected to my strong dislike of heights, but then that's only when there isn't a barrier in front of me, which would explain why I hate escalators but don't mind going up them. It gets to the point where I worry about going on journeys and avoid them unless absolutely neccessary. So when we go to Brugue, me and my brother (and a few other people) are going down to Cockfosters Underground Station, then to Kings Cross St Pancras, then to Brugue - and if an escalator presents itself in the underground, I am going to be a ball of nerves... especially since I don't think my brother will be very patient with me (I can't blame him). The underground escalators are horrible and I hate them - and London by extension - with a passion.
So I have two options - (a) beg the guards to take me down another way, which is also humiliating and horrible, (b) find another route (not likely, considering how rushed we'll be) or (c) try to desensitise myself by trying to go down as many escalators between now and the day.
None of which are any option I'd choose.
Still, watching Children in Need right now makes me feel even worse considering what some kids are going through these days.
Fanfiction and art going okay at the moment, recieved last beta-review for 'The Future's Past' so I'm now going through the final edit, 'Kintobor' progressing well too and some pictures sketched out, so some progress on that front.
Plus I had the interview for my passport on Tuesday and got it in the post yesterday, horrible photo, but still it's here.
All I need to do now is beat that phobia.
If I can I might try the others.
>.<