Coffee, Redbull, and my meds are my saving grace- all hail caffine!
So things have really been quite up and down this whole week, thank god it is "humpday", which means that there are only 2 more days until the weekend-thank god. Maybe then I will actually be able to get some sleep, but on second thought...naw. I really should, but I don't have the time and my body physically won't allow it. Even when I try to go to sleep at a reasonable time I toos and turn all night, so ofcorse the folowing day I drink excessive amounts of caffine to make up for the lack of sleep, chain effect=not good. Oh well. I probably just have too much on my mind...Yea, that is most deff it. I'm stressing from my SAT class and school, not to mention the drama and problems that have recently come up at work. My poor baby Nathaniel...I worry about him so much. He is one of the kids at my workplace and on friday Jose informed us that his mom over the past 2 months had become an alocholic and that if she arrives to pick him up and appears to be drunk, we can't allow her to take him home. Meanwhile, we all think this is because her mother is dying and we are like how can she do this to her child?! Upon hearing this I got all teary-eyed because I have known this kid since I first started working there last school year, and he is so sweet. And these children, we become so close to them and almost treat them as our own, seeing them hurt is the hardest thing. So that was on my mind all weekend. Then on Monday we had a staff semanar w/ all of the schools and we were at the meeting when all of a sudden all of the Farmland KAH staff gets pulled aside by Dave (one of the co-owners of the company) and he tells us the worst news. Nathaniel's mother passed away that morning, it was such a surprise...As it turned out, she had cancer and the doctors had told her that she didn't have much time left to live, none of us even had the slightest idea of that, she was always so cheerful and healthy looking. But the worse part is, Nathaniel was the one that found her that morning when she wouldn't wake-up. None of us even have the slightest idea of what is going to happen since his parents are divorced and his dad lives in VA, it would be too much for him to move. I really just don't want to see this child even more hurt than he already is. I, and the rest of the staff, have been so upset and so worried. So maybe that is what could be keeping me up at night, meh. And unfortunatly I seem to have slightly picked up smoking again-oopsie. I should stop that before I get started again..(outloud mental note to myself) So yea, when I'm not up late doing HW I always seem to leave like 10 min long messages on people's phones, heh. Damn, I really feel like painting but it gets too dark too early now, poo. On a lighter note, for the past 2 days in Hort. class I have been driving around w/ Robert, Erni, Rachel, and Liz all out to gather leaves! Hahaha, damn I love that class! So yea if you have BAGGED leaves (I hate that so many people just rake their leaves to the curb, where people can park their cars ontop of and either get stuck, or have their car catch on fire. Lovely, isn't it?) don't be surprised if they all of a sudden are gone while you are at school. :-D Hahaha...okay, I have had enough rambling for today, there is just WAY too much caffine in me! Oh yea, and someone called me on a "private" number today while I was in my SAT tutor/class, can we say sketch?