Ive Got a Feelin
Im back in my apartment after a not so successful trip home. Am I glad I went? Yes. Was it enjoyable? Minimally. In brief, my grandmother is very possibly in her last days and my mother is breaking down slowly. What have their lives taught me? Its never too late.
Ive struggled with laziness and lack of motivation all of my life though Ive only recently realized it. And now I have a new found motivation. The only problem is that Ive had new found motivation before and it hasnt panned out.
What will be different this time?
Seeing my family's struggle is more than difficult for me which is why I had to remove myself from the environment. I dont want that for my mother when it comes time for her to enjoy the end of her life and I dont want to feel trapped like she does. I have the ability to change that future and I finally have what it takes to make those moves. I dont plan on starting tomorrow. I plan on starting right now. Goodness can come from any struggle and I believe that that will be my story. Beauty and prosperity will come from my struggle.
So as I sit here listening to my boy Frank Ocean and smoke my black and mild I am more happy than sad. I believe in my self more than I have in quite some time and I'm excited (and petrified) to see what happens next.
Pray for me ya'll and I hope that the new year brings you the motivation to take that step forward.
Ive struggled with laziness and lack of motivation all of my life though Ive only recently realized it. And now I have a new found motivation. The only problem is that Ive had new found motivation before and it hasnt panned out.
What will be different this time?
Seeing my family's struggle is more than difficult for me which is why I had to remove myself from the environment. I dont want that for my mother when it comes time for her to enjoy the end of her life and I dont want to feel trapped like she does. I have the ability to change that future and I finally have what it takes to make those moves. I dont plan on starting tomorrow. I plan on starting right now. Goodness can come from any struggle and I believe that that will be my story. Beauty and prosperity will come from my struggle.
So as I sit here listening to my boy Frank Ocean and smoke my black and mild I am more happy than sad. I believe in my self more than I have in quite some time and I'm excited (and petrified) to see what happens next.
Pray for me ya'll and I hope that the new year brings you the motivation to take that step forward.