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So today I went to Round Rock and watched The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants with Natalie, Erin, Alysia, and Catherine. The movie was really good. Then we went to Gattiland and hang out, ate, played games, and talked for a couple hours. I had fun. :)
You don't have to read this.
The rest of this entry is a rant...not specifically pertaining to what I wrote before this or about anyone I wrote about. It is just me, after having been thinking about these things for the past couple of days, choosing today, choosing this post, to let it all out.
Well...where do I begin? We'll start with this...Actions speak louder than words.
So even though apologizing is enough sometimes...sometimes it isn't. For someone to say that they are sorry for the way they blow you off as a friend and then continue to do it is stupid. And this person does not only do it to me, as I have learned, but to many. They do it to the people who actually care about them the most and have since forever. But now that this certain someone has found a new crowd to hang with, we are nothing. We were the ones who were around when they needed us and we'll be the ones around when this new group of people leaves. All we want is to be talked to, like the old days, hung out with, not blow off for your new friends.
Ok next topic. I wish that people would just tell you that they don't like you, instead of saying that we are friends and doing nothing to prove that. Some people say that I am their friend, but I always wonder if that is true. I feel like I am never going to be accepted into the group. You always say that we are going to hang out and do stuff and then you end up going with your other friends. Whenever I ask to hang out you are busy. Even if we vaguely plan stuff, it just gets skipped over and you go and hang out with your other friends. I feel like there isn't enough room in your busy life for me.
So this guy doesn't like me. Not...like like...just like in general. Because I liked him once, he just can't let it go. I didn't even like him for that long...a month at the most. When I tell him I don't like him, he doesn't believe me. He is so caught up in his cockiness that he just can't get over himself. He doesn't even want me to go to a movie that my really good friend is going to because he doesn't like me and doesn't want me around. It is not like because I am around you I am going to fall madly in love with you or anything. He doesn't like me because he thinks I still like him. How stupid is that? We hang out with most of the same people.
I feel like I am only friends to this one person when they are bored or have no one else to talk to. I guess it is silly of me to think that when this person talks to me it is because they actually want to have a conversation.
One person makes me feel like having to hang out with me is some kind of burden. They feel guilty and so they have to invite me, even when they don't really want me there. Or so they make it seem.
You had to know that the whole boy topic was going to come up. I just don't know. There are two guys. My gosh. One I really like, but can't do anything about. One I like, but shouldn't and don't really want to. I am sure you are thinking...if you don't want to, then don't, but it just isn't that easy.
Sometimes I feel unappreciated. It always seems like I am doing things for other people, but never really get that in return.
I am sure that because of this post I am now going to be talked about and all that, but I guess it comes with the territory of expressing your feelings. Someone is always going to think otherwise and talk about you behind your back.
Yes, I am may seem sensitive and childish and all that. Blah blah blah. But no one said you had to read it. And it's a journal, my journal, that's what it is for.
<3 Annie-lee
You don't have to read this.
The rest of this entry is a rant...not specifically pertaining to what I wrote before this or about anyone I wrote about. It is just me, after having been thinking about these things for the past couple of days, choosing today, choosing this post, to let it all out.
Well...where do I begin? We'll start with this...Actions speak louder than words.
So even though apologizing is enough sometimes...sometimes it isn't. For someone to say that they are sorry for the way they blow you off as a friend and then continue to do it is stupid. And this person does not only do it to me, as I have learned, but to many. They do it to the people who actually care about them the most and have since forever. But now that this certain someone has found a new crowd to hang with, we are nothing. We were the ones who were around when they needed us and we'll be the ones around when this new group of people leaves. All we want is to be talked to, like the old days, hung out with, not blow off for your new friends.
Ok next topic. I wish that people would just tell you that they don't like you, instead of saying that we are friends and doing nothing to prove that. Some people say that I am their friend, but I always wonder if that is true. I feel like I am never going to be accepted into the group. You always say that we are going to hang out and do stuff and then you end up going with your other friends. Whenever I ask to hang out you are busy. Even if we vaguely plan stuff, it just gets skipped over and you go and hang out with your other friends. I feel like there isn't enough room in your busy life for me.
So this guy doesn't like me. Not...like like...just like in general. Because I liked him once, he just can't let it go. I didn't even like him for that long...a month at the most. When I tell him I don't like him, he doesn't believe me. He is so caught up in his cockiness that he just can't get over himself. He doesn't even want me to go to a movie that my really good friend is going to because he doesn't like me and doesn't want me around. It is not like because I am around you I am going to fall madly in love with you or anything. He doesn't like me because he thinks I still like him. How stupid is that? We hang out with most of the same people.
I feel like I am only friends to this one person when they are bored or have no one else to talk to. I guess it is silly of me to think that when this person talks to me it is because they actually want to have a conversation.
One person makes me feel like having to hang out with me is some kind of burden. They feel guilty and so they have to invite me, even when they don't really want me there. Or so they make it seem.
You had to know that the whole boy topic was going to come up. I just don't know. There are two guys. My gosh. One I really like, but can't do anything about. One I like, but shouldn't and don't really want to. I am sure you are thinking...if you don't want to, then don't, but it just isn't that easy.
Sometimes I feel unappreciated. It always seems like I am doing things for other people, but never really get that in return.
I am sure that because of this post I am now going to be talked about and all that, but I guess it comes with the territory of expressing your feelings. Someone is always going to think otherwise and talk about you behind your back.
Yes, I am may seem sensitive and childish and all that. Blah blah blah. But no one said you had to read it. And it's a journal, my journal, that's what it is for.
<3 Annie-lee