well, I'm disappointed
I’ve waited a month to hear what I didn’t want to.
Well, what I was thinking I would hear was whether or not I was a match and obviously I didn’t want to find out that I wasn’t. I think the news I got was even more disappointing though.
Its likely a condition/effect of my PCOS, but what I was told is that my 3 hour glucose test showed I had an impaired glucose tolerance. That combined with my family history put me in the risk category for developing diabetes later in life. Diabetes causes problems with your kidneys and therefore, people at a risk for diabetes are in a high risk category disallowing living kidney donation.
When I told my husband, he asked if I’d matched or not. I don’t know and as I told him it doesn’t matter. If I did, I would feel worse knowing that I can’t do anything about it.
I know that this is God’s will. And as my boss said, it just means God has an even bigger plan for me (she is a smart lady) and this just wasn’t it. As she put it - I followed my heart and what I felt led to do. That doesn’t diminish my disappointment or my sadness.
I thank all of you that have kept Mark and I in your prayers. Remember though, while my part is over, his is not, so please continue to pray for him and for that perfect donor to come along.
As for me, I do need to follow up with my regular doctor and make some minor modifications to keep me out of the Type 2 category later in life.