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i think its better to spend your whole life wondering who your father was/is than to have a selfish, alcoholic, arrogant, obnoxious idoit as a father. especially if your mother thinks she is in a wonderful relationship. it makes me so angry they are putting the poor boy through all of that. and he has no choice. it makes me so mad. at least if you never met him you can pretend that he loved you or that he was a great guy and did his best trying to find you, instead of dealing with the man you look up to calling you a fuck up every other day of your life. wish there was something i could do. :(