babies
so there are like 28347289 people i know who are pregnant (including my sister, yayy :)) and the rest of the people i know who are in relationships are breaking up. bob and i have no desire to do either one right now and we have yet to decide if getting pregnant is ever gonna be the plan. its not that i dont think a kid is worth pregnancy, labor, birth, thousands of thousands of dollars, stitches, getting fat, stretch marks, worry, but actually i dont know if its worth it. especially because neither of us are patient people.. and i think parents are suppsoed to be patient.. i'm completely inconsistent, which is something that drives me crazy about my parents. oh, did i mention that the idea of tearing and stitching gives me nightmares? what happens if my kid dies or like we decide we want one and my eggs are bad or something so we've wasted tons of money on birth control and now have to deal with the adoption process. but i want to know what our kids would look like.. what they would get from each of us.. but wouldn't they just be good looking crazy people? idk. i want to give him the chance to be the man his father was..is.. not. he deserves it. but i dunno... i guess i dont need to worry about it right now, because no matter what is decided, no babies til i'm at least 25 or something... anyway. just a thought.