Fanfic: Pitch Black [Chapter 16]
Title: Pitch Black
Author: audcline
Genres:Romance, Drama ,Angst, Slice of Life
Pairings: YamaChii[main], Tadaiki,Daichi,YamaJima [side pairing]
Rating:rated PG
Summary: Yuri lost his reasons to open new doors after an incident during his last year in the University. After that incident he changed. Ever since then, he lived his life in shadows and distance his self from people. Until an unexpected encounter made him take a step out of his shell once again, but what if stepping out of his shell means facing those people who made him feel worthless? What if stepping out of his shell means acceptance of the things that he already closes his eyes for? and what if stepping out of his shell means falling inlove to a person he didn't expect was once became a part of his past life?
The most awaited time finally arrived. It's the Fashion Runway Collection by which different models and different fashion artist/ designer from the country is invited. It's a big a event for people that were part of the fashion industry. Fashion bloggers, showbiz reporters and different artist will also attend the said event. Takaki and Ryosuke were part of the team and they're getting ready for the fashion show that will officially start in an hour. Both of them are in the dressing room backstage, they're peaking behind the closed curtains trying to find someone in the big crowd.
"Ryosuke who are you looking for?" Takaki asked while his head move everywhere looking for someone amidst the big crowd of people.
"I'm looking for Yuri. I invited him to this event he should be here by now." he answered. " I know who are you looking for Takaki-san..." Ryosuke smirk while trying to look malicious infront of his senpai. "Ari-chan deshou?" he blurted out.
"Ssshhh... Don't say it out loud, baka!" Takaki smacked him lightly in the head and all of a sudden he received a text message from the person he's waiting for. He immediately leave the place while Ryosuke is stuck there alone. He couldn't find him in the crowd and it's worrying him. He always check his phone just in case he receive a text message or a call.
"Yuri where are you?" he whispered.
On the other hand, Yuri is already outside the venue but he's having cold feet after seeing the luxurious crowd at the red carpet. For the first time after years he is attending an event with so many people and big personalities on it. Wearing his suit he couldn't move from the distance he is standing in right now, feels like he get stoned in that certain spot. Then all of a sudden his phone vibrated from his suit's pocket, he immediately fish the phone from his pocket and answer the call.
"Moshi-moshi, Baa-chan?" it was Ryosuke calling.
"R-Ryosuke?"
"Where are you? The show is about to start."
"I-I can't..." - "T-There's too man-"
"What do you mean you can't?" Ryosuke asked. "Hello? Yuri? I can barely hear you. Hello?"
Then all of a sudden Yuri saw Ryosuke walking near the entrance, seems like he's looking for him around that area. Yuri gain the strength to walk through the crowd to meet Ryosuke half way. The elder one with his hawk eye saw the figure he's looking for. He smiled widely the moment he saw Yuri from the distance. His heart beats abnormally when he saw how Yuri transform into a beautiful gentleman that night for the event. He waved at him while slowly feeling his face turning red. There is like a 10 steps stairway where the red carpet is placed up to the entrance of the event venue. There were cameramen and videographer around the area, and some fans giving their support. Yuri was push quite intense and almost trip forward which Ryosuke immediately paid attention to. He is about to go down the steps to help Yuri when suddenly a cameraman holding a big camera made a sharp turn and the edge of it bumped into Ryosuke's upper eyelid that causes him to lost his balance and tripped off few steps and a mysterious guy caught him and they both fell all the way down.
Everybody was in a big shocked when they saw the accident happened. Due to that incident, a commotion was built instantly in that area. Yuri without a word immediately walk through the crowd and meet Ryosuke in that spot.
"R-Ryosuke?" Yuri broke into tears when saw Ryosuke's condition. His throat hurts for suppressing his self from speaking, his hands turned icy cold and is shaking. "R-Ryosuke a-are you o-okay?" he asked worriedly.
"Y-Yuri..." Ryosuke's voice is faint. His head starts to feel cloudy even the noise is starting to disappear as if his senses is being taken away from him slowly. He felt a sudden pain on his head while staring weakly at Yuri who's crying beside him that time.
"Baa-chan... Nakanai...de"
Looking back, i think i saw the same expression that time when i saved you from a falling pot. It's the same crying face that i saw. It's the same feelings that I felt... I think ... I've fallen in love again ...
And everything turned pitch black.
~**~
"Writing? Are you serious?"
"Hai. I want to pursue writing. I love reading as much as i love writing. I think they're a couple in there own world. They compliment each other don't you think, Ryutaro?"
"Uhn...I also think the same. Then if you love it that much, then go for it. I'll support you with your dream. We're brothers right?"
"Even it's not what mum and dad will approved to right now if I work hard and show them how writing will eventually change things maybe someday they will appreciate it. And they will read the books that i write. I want them to tell me after reading those books that I was able to send them to a new world. That i am capable of giving words life. I want them to be proud of me. "
"That's the spirit Ryosuke."
"Thank you Ryu-tan."
"Ryosuke? R-Ryosuke..."
There's a certain feeling whenever he call out my name. There's a certain warmth whenever he's around. The way he stare at me then suddenly look away while his ears starts turning red. That face whenever he look away from my sudden action, that gives me a kind of joy and security that I could barely express in words.
"Ryosuke you're awake. Thank God. How are you feeling now?"
"Yume?"
The ichigo lover wake up and the first person he saw the moment he opened his eyes was Yuri. He kind of feel his upper left eyelid gives a sharp pain from time to time. He touch his head and felt gauges covering a certain spot there.
"W-What happened?" he asked Yuri.
"You've been unconscious for 2 and a half hours Ryosuke. There was an accident at the venue. A cameraman accidentally made a sharp turned and the edge of his camera hit you causing you to feel dizzy and lost balance, you fell from the stairs all the way down." Yuri explained to him what exactly happened.
"Ah...sou..." Ryosuke take a deep sigh of disappointment but all of a sudden he was reminded again of what happened. "The other guy...how is he?" Ryosuke's expression transcend instantly into a worry. "Where is he? I need to see him now." he insisted visiting the mysterious guy who caught him upon falling down. Yuri quickly gave him a hand while heading to where the other guy is being treated. Yuri asked the information which room that person might possibly be.
"The nurse said that his name is Sano Tsubasa, he's in room 102." Yuri informed Ryosuke who's leaning on the wall with a gloomy yet worrisome expression drawn all over his face . The little one saw Ryosuke's hand shaking, this kind of uptight situation is very unusual for Ryosuke who's always stubborn, crazy and jolly. Yuri is about to touch his hand but hold back when Ryosuke walked out and head towards the said room. The little one doesn't know what to say, he just followed him and remain in silence. They arrived at room 102 and there is that mysterious guy alone on that room, Ryosuke approach that guy on his own accord.
"A-anou you're that guy who helped me right? Sano Tsubasa? I just want to say than- "
" Better not say those words cause you'll regret it."
Ryosuke and Yuri we're left clueless why this guy is acting strange, "What do you mean? You helped me right? "
Sano smirked, "That is stupid." - "Why would i even do that? Well in fact, i would be happier if you died." he said.
Ryosuke is completely clueless from what's happening. He's troubled by all this things that Sano is telling him.
"It's been a year. It's been a year since I last saw my little sister. She's a smart girl, she loves writing and reading since she was a kid, she's been a big fan of your books. The first time she buy your very first book she didn't let go of it until she finished reading the whole book. She even re-read it many times. Until she told me she wanted to become like you. She worked hard to write her own stories, send them to some publishing companies several times but get rejected. She never stop from there, she continue on pursuing her dream, but things became difficult for her. She became a laugh about of some companies, telling her that she doesn't have the potential to become a good writer. That she's lacking the qualification to become a writer. That she should stop because it'll get her no good."
The elder one couldn't believe what he just heard from this stranger. His eyes is starting to itch and his heart is weighing too much while listening to his story.
"And that's where the problem started!" Sano grab Ryosuke's colar and fiercely stared at him with tears starting to build up. "It's all because of your sugar coated flowery words that gave her too much hope. Following your every words made her suffer. "Just continue doing what you can." "Believe in yourself." "Failing is part of it, you cry then get up!" Those are those trashy words that you're always trying to sink in to each of your readers and supporters. But in reality you have no idea how much they're struggling to achieve their dreams. "
The moment Ryosuke heard the last sentence Sano said his mind went blank. His power descended and he couldn't help but to remain in silent while being grab helplessly in his colar. "She worked her self hard until she passed out, she's doing everything because whenever she heard you in your interviews or read articles about how you get all your accomplishments at an early age she couldn't help but to continue. She never stop." Sano started crying hysterically while trying to put the blame to Ryosuke. " She was diagnosed with a cancer and - she died."
Even Yuri was caught in the moment. He was so shocked to hear the story but what made him feel like crying was when he turn his attention to Ryosuke and saw him standing there, lifeless. He's letting Sano grab him tightly and swayed him forcefully. Yuri didn't waste a second he immediately pull Ryosuke away from Sano and move out from that room. Our little squirrel hold Ryosuke by hand and it worries him when he look at him in the eyes and saw no soul.
~**~
Yuri made their way out of the room, he dragged Ryosuke in the hospital garden since that's the closest place that is empty at that time. It's around 10pm, the night sky is clear and the stars are brightly illuminating the vast sky. The little one glance at his hand holding the elder one's hand yet he didn't dare to look what might be Ryosuke's expression at the moment. Ryosuke feel like he's being stab all at the same time by sharp fragments. His heart plunked down really bad because of what he heard. It doesn't feel right. And the weight inside his chest won't go away. Yuri felt how hurt he is. He understand that Ryosuke is going through this phase, and it's hard to deal with especially that he's a free person, a passionate one, a positive guy, someone who always give out genuine smile because he wanted the people around him to smile as well. But this time, at this very moment the Ryosuke who always laugh, feels lifeless.
When you expose yourself to people, when you open your door and let them step inside your circle, you have to take full responsibility. You have to think about them and care. You have to make them happy. And when they're sad you try your best to make them smile. That's what life is for Ryosuke, that is what living meant for him, it's living for the others because when people around him is happy, that's his happiness - his contentment.
"Yuri-"
"Hmm?"
"Do you...think that I'm a good person?" Ryosuke asked out of the blue while feeling down. " I am not sure of that myself." he said bluntly. That was the first time Ryosuke become unsure of his self, usually he's confident and always positive of his own capabilities but this time he couldn't pull his self together. "I think I finally understand why you isolate yourself from the world- "
"Ryosuke..."
On the other hand, Takaki and Arioka were on the after party celebration. They couldn't leave the place even after knowing what happened to Ryosuke. The event went smoothly even after being in a chaos. They were able to solve the problem by putting Arioka as a replacement for Ryosuke. It was Arioka's first time walking at the center with lots of eyes set on him. It was Takaki who worked everything out for the success of the event. Even though Arioka isn't a professional model he was able to pull it off and Takaki couldn't be prouder for his dearest. This couple tried contacting the two but there's an interruption with the phone signals and they couldn't reach them.
~**~
"Here..." Yuri said while giving the other cup of coffee to Ryosuke who is sitting quietly at the bench of the hospital garden.
"Arigatou."
"Uhn." the little one sit beside him at the bench and they simultaneously take a sip from there coffee cup. The warmth of the coffee is just perfect to calm the atmosphere event just a bit. Just like anyone of us nobody can surpass that phase in life where you need to undergo mental chaos and emotional stability. It happens to all of us some may handle it well but most of the time it's one of the hardest thing to do, to keep on living while losing yourself on the process.
"It's not your fault at all." Yuri said.
Ryosuke smile lightly when he heard Yuri trying to console his feelings, "Of course I know that. It's just that... I can't forget everything that he said about his sister." the ichigo lover saddened.
"There are people who's happy and able to smile because of your books. And I think she passed away... having no regrets." Yuri said which Ryosuke find confusing. " She look up on you as an inspiration. After being rejected many times, it didn't stop her from trying again. She has the power to move on because she understand that it's a part of the process, and she learned that thing through your books. She looked up on you as her personal cheerleader."
Ryosuke smirk lightly before saying anything, "When i got into that accident earlier... you were there crying. It reminded me of an old memory. I felt a thug on my heart while looking at your face and my chest throbbed painfully because I've realize that i made you cry again - I'm sorry. " the ichigo lover stand up and move away from Yuri, head lie low, his shoulders, by just looking from the back look tired and exhausted. "After everything... I don't even know if i can still go back to being me in the past, after ruining someone else life and for making you cry , I don't think I can go back." Ryosuke voice out his true feelings.
"No!" Yuri is on the verge of breaking apart when he heard Ryosuke conveyed such remorse. "Go back to the way you were... Talking nonstop, easy smiling, honest and always faithful to yourself. Go back to being the warm-hearted Ryosuke that you are."
"Yuri?"
"My first encounter with you during the late winter season, it put me in such chaos. I don't like you being around because I thought that you were just a bother. The past few weeks I wished that you'd just leave me alone because I'm hurting so badly. But even how much i try to push you away you still insisted to stay." tears cascaded down on both corners of his eyes while trying to remain composed. But no matter how much he try to act strong he couldn't hold it, it's just too much to bear. "I thought that you're only doing all of these to console me in favor to your late brother. I thought you're helping me out of pity." - " I have no confidence... so I hid away my feelings because i don't want you to misunderstood." Yuri cried.
"I like you."
Ryosuke gaped as he stare at Yuri with tears freely flowing from his eyes. Hearing that three magical word from Yuri, he started to feel sentimental. He walk slowly towards where Yuri is standing in. Perplex by that sudden confession Ryosuke try to absorb each words, he try to let the moment sink in to him even deep inside his thoughts begins to muddled up. The ichigo lover reached the back of Yuri's head and caresses him gently while his other hand encircled that small figure while pulling him closer. Yuri could feel the warmth of his palm from the way he caresses his head, not minding if his hair get mess up.
"I've been waiting for you to say that..."
And without further ado, Ryosuke sealed all the doubts and fear with a kiss. Yuri slowly closes his eyes while being swayed by that magical moment. If they could only stop the clock from tickling. If this story is a fairytale this should settle as the finale where the protagonist together with his lover lives happily ever after. But this is no fairytale, not fictional either and happy endings after being kissed was mainstream. Reality is always unpredictable but moreover it is something worthy than any other things. They broke the kiss after few seconds and Ryosuke look at Yuri right in the eyes before giving him a magical kiss on the forehead followed by a gentle yet tight embrace. <3
To be continued...
A/N: Horray! Feelings conveyed! Horray! after so many twisted chapters... finally I've decided to make them face this stage. This part of the story is one of the most awaited part yet one of the crucial and exciting part for me. I know everyone loves YamaChine to become canon since I've been putting too much restriction because it's not yet the right time for it. But i really planned this to be this long before the confession of feelings. I'm following my drafts but there were times when an idea or scene intervines and the supposedly next scenes gets move to the next chapter (something like that.) hahaha. I'm still thinking if it's already time to end the story once I arrived at chapter 20 or continue further. What do you think minna-sama?
Anyway, I apologize for any typos, wrong grammars and other flaws. Critics are well-appreciated. Comments are always love. I love reading your comments even though i don't reply to them i'm reading them. And it's a very big motivation for me to continue writing this story. Thank you minna-sama. I hope you like this update. See you on the next chapter. Ciao ^_^
Author: audcline
Genres:Romance, Drama ,Angst, Slice of Life
Pairings: YamaChii[main], Tadaiki,Daichi,YamaJima [side pairing]
Rating:rated PG
Summary: Yuri lost his reasons to open new doors after an incident during his last year in the University. After that incident he changed. Ever since then, he lived his life in shadows and distance his self from people. Until an unexpected encounter made him take a step out of his shell once again, but what if stepping out of his shell means facing those people who made him feel worthless? What if stepping out of his shell means acceptance of the things that he already closes his eyes for? and what if stepping out of his shell means falling inlove to a person he didn't expect was once became a part of his past life?
The most awaited time finally arrived. It's the Fashion Runway Collection by which different models and different fashion artist/ designer from the country is invited. It's a big a event for people that were part of the fashion industry. Fashion bloggers, showbiz reporters and different artist will also attend the said event. Takaki and Ryosuke were part of the team and they're getting ready for the fashion show that will officially start in an hour. Both of them are in the dressing room backstage, they're peaking behind the closed curtains trying to find someone in the big crowd.
"Ryosuke who are you looking for?" Takaki asked while his head move everywhere looking for someone amidst the big crowd of people.
"I'm looking for Yuri. I invited him to this event he should be here by now." he answered. " I know who are you looking for Takaki-san..." Ryosuke smirk while trying to look malicious infront of his senpai. "Ari-chan deshou?" he blurted out.
"Ssshhh... Don't say it out loud, baka!" Takaki smacked him lightly in the head and all of a sudden he received a text message from the person he's waiting for. He immediately leave the place while Ryosuke is stuck there alone. He couldn't find him in the crowd and it's worrying him. He always check his phone just in case he receive a text message or a call.
"Yuri where are you?" he whispered.
On the other hand, Yuri is already outside the venue but he's having cold feet after seeing the luxurious crowd at the red carpet. For the first time after years he is attending an event with so many people and big personalities on it. Wearing his suit he couldn't move from the distance he is standing in right now, feels like he get stoned in that certain spot. Then all of a sudden his phone vibrated from his suit's pocket, he immediately fish the phone from his pocket and answer the call.
"Moshi-moshi, Baa-chan?" it was Ryosuke calling.
"R-Ryosuke?"
"Where are you? The show is about to start."
"I-I can't..." - "T-There's too man-"
"What do you mean you can't?" Ryosuke asked. "Hello? Yuri? I can barely hear you. Hello?"
Then all of a sudden Yuri saw Ryosuke walking near the entrance, seems like he's looking for him around that area. Yuri gain the strength to walk through the crowd to meet Ryosuke half way. The elder one with his hawk eye saw the figure he's looking for. He smiled widely the moment he saw Yuri from the distance. His heart beats abnormally when he saw how Yuri transform into a beautiful gentleman that night for the event. He waved at him while slowly feeling his face turning red. There is like a 10 steps stairway where the red carpet is placed up to the entrance of the event venue. There were cameramen and videographer around the area, and some fans giving their support. Yuri was push quite intense and almost trip forward which Ryosuke immediately paid attention to. He is about to go down the steps to help Yuri when suddenly a cameraman holding a big camera made a sharp turn and the edge of it bumped into Ryosuke's upper eyelid that causes him to lost his balance and tripped off few steps and a mysterious guy caught him and they both fell all the way down.
Everybody was in a big shocked when they saw the accident happened. Due to that incident, a commotion was built instantly in that area. Yuri without a word immediately walk through the crowd and meet Ryosuke in that spot.
"R-Ryosuke?" Yuri broke into tears when saw Ryosuke's condition. His throat hurts for suppressing his self from speaking, his hands turned icy cold and is shaking. "R-Ryosuke a-are you o-okay?" he asked worriedly.
"Y-Yuri..." Ryosuke's voice is faint. His head starts to feel cloudy even the noise is starting to disappear as if his senses is being taken away from him slowly. He felt a sudden pain on his head while staring weakly at Yuri who's crying beside him that time.
"Baa-chan... Nakanai...de"
Looking back, i think i saw the same expression that time when i saved you from a falling pot. It's the same crying face that i saw. It's the same feelings that I felt... I think ... I've fallen in love again ...
And everything turned pitch black.
~**~
"Writing? Are you serious?"
"Hai. I want to pursue writing. I love reading as much as i love writing. I think they're a couple in there own world. They compliment each other don't you think, Ryutaro?"
"Uhn...I also think the same. Then if you love it that much, then go for it. I'll support you with your dream. We're brothers right?"
"Even it's not what mum and dad will approved to right now if I work hard and show them how writing will eventually change things maybe someday they will appreciate it. And they will read the books that i write. I want them to tell me after reading those books that I was able to send them to a new world. That i am capable of giving words life. I want them to be proud of me. "
"That's the spirit Ryosuke."
"Thank you Ryu-tan."
"Ryosuke? R-Ryosuke..."
There's a certain feeling whenever he call out my name. There's a certain warmth whenever he's around. The way he stare at me then suddenly look away while his ears starts turning red. That face whenever he look away from my sudden action, that gives me a kind of joy and security that I could barely express in words.
"Ryosuke you're awake. Thank God. How are you feeling now?"
"Yume?"
The ichigo lover wake up and the first person he saw the moment he opened his eyes was Yuri. He kind of feel his upper left eyelid gives a sharp pain from time to time. He touch his head and felt gauges covering a certain spot there.
"W-What happened?" he asked Yuri.
"You've been unconscious for 2 and a half hours Ryosuke. There was an accident at the venue. A cameraman accidentally made a sharp turned and the edge of his camera hit you causing you to feel dizzy and lost balance, you fell from the stairs all the way down." Yuri explained to him what exactly happened.
"Ah...sou..." Ryosuke take a deep sigh of disappointment but all of a sudden he was reminded again of what happened. "The other guy...how is he?" Ryosuke's expression transcend instantly into a worry. "Where is he? I need to see him now." he insisted visiting the mysterious guy who caught him upon falling down. Yuri quickly gave him a hand while heading to where the other guy is being treated. Yuri asked the information which room that person might possibly be.
"The nurse said that his name is Sano Tsubasa, he's in room 102." Yuri informed Ryosuke who's leaning on the wall with a gloomy yet worrisome expression drawn all over his face . The little one saw Ryosuke's hand shaking, this kind of uptight situation is very unusual for Ryosuke who's always stubborn, crazy and jolly. Yuri is about to touch his hand but hold back when Ryosuke walked out and head towards the said room. The little one doesn't know what to say, he just followed him and remain in silence. They arrived at room 102 and there is that mysterious guy alone on that room, Ryosuke approach that guy on his own accord.
"A-anou you're that guy who helped me right? Sano Tsubasa? I just want to say than- "
" Better not say those words cause you'll regret it."
Ryosuke and Yuri we're left clueless why this guy is acting strange, "What do you mean? You helped me right? "
Sano smirked, "That is stupid." - "Why would i even do that? Well in fact, i would be happier if you died." he said.
Ryosuke is completely clueless from what's happening. He's troubled by all this things that Sano is telling him.
"It's been a year. It's been a year since I last saw my little sister. She's a smart girl, she loves writing and reading since she was a kid, she's been a big fan of your books. The first time she buy your very first book she didn't let go of it until she finished reading the whole book. She even re-read it many times. Until she told me she wanted to become like you. She worked hard to write her own stories, send them to some publishing companies several times but get rejected. She never stop from there, she continue on pursuing her dream, but things became difficult for her. She became a laugh about of some companies, telling her that she doesn't have the potential to become a good writer. That she's lacking the qualification to become a writer. That she should stop because it'll get her no good."
The elder one couldn't believe what he just heard from this stranger. His eyes is starting to itch and his heart is weighing too much while listening to his story.
"And that's where the problem started!" Sano grab Ryosuke's colar and fiercely stared at him with tears starting to build up. "It's all because of your sugar coated flowery words that gave her too much hope. Following your every words made her suffer. "Just continue doing what you can." "Believe in yourself." "Failing is part of it, you cry then get up!" Those are those trashy words that you're always trying to sink in to each of your readers and supporters. But in reality you have no idea how much they're struggling to achieve their dreams. "
The moment Ryosuke heard the last sentence Sano said his mind went blank. His power descended and he couldn't help but to remain in silent while being grab helplessly in his colar. "She worked her self hard until she passed out, she's doing everything because whenever she heard you in your interviews or read articles about how you get all your accomplishments at an early age she couldn't help but to continue. She never stop." Sano started crying hysterically while trying to put the blame to Ryosuke. " She was diagnosed with a cancer and - she died."
Even Yuri was caught in the moment. He was so shocked to hear the story but what made him feel like crying was when he turn his attention to Ryosuke and saw him standing there, lifeless. He's letting Sano grab him tightly and swayed him forcefully. Yuri didn't waste a second he immediately pull Ryosuke away from Sano and move out from that room. Our little squirrel hold Ryosuke by hand and it worries him when he look at him in the eyes and saw no soul.
~**~
Yuri made their way out of the room, he dragged Ryosuke in the hospital garden since that's the closest place that is empty at that time. It's around 10pm, the night sky is clear and the stars are brightly illuminating the vast sky. The little one glance at his hand holding the elder one's hand yet he didn't dare to look what might be Ryosuke's expression at the moment. Ryosuke feel like he's being stab all at the same time by sharp fragments. His heart plunked down really bad because of what he heard. It doesn't feel right. And the weight inside his chest won't go away. Yuri felt how hurt he is. He understand that Ryosuke is going through this phase, and it's hard to deal with especially that he's a free person, a passionate one, a positive guy, someone who always give out genuine smile because he wanted the people around him to smile as well. But this time, at this very moment the Ryosuke who always laugh, feels lifeless.
When you expose yourself to people, when you open your door and let them step inside your circle, you have to take full responsibility. You have to think about them and care. You have to make them happy. And when they're sad you try your best to make them smile. That's what life is for Ryosuke, that is what living meant for him, it's living for the others because when people around him is happy, that's his happiness - his contentment.
"Yuri-"
"Hmm?"
"Do you...think that I'm a good person?" Ryosuke asked out of the blue while feeling down. " I am not sure of that myself." he said bluntly. That was the first time Ryosuke become unsure of his self, usually he's confident and always positive of his own capabilities but this time he couldn't pull his self together. "I think I finally understand why you isolate yourself from the world- "
"Ryosuke..."
On the other hand, Takaki and Arioka were on the after party celebration. They couldn't leave the place even after knowing what happened to Ryosuke. The event went smoothly even after being in a chaos. They were able to solve the problem by putting Arioka as a replacement for Ryosuke. It was Arioka's first time walking at the center with lots of eyes set on him. It was Takaki who worked everything out for the success of the event. Even though Arioka isn't a professional model he was able to pull it off and Takaki couldn't be prouder for his dearest. This couple tried contacting the two but there's an interruption with the phone signals and they couldn't reach them.
~**~
"Here..." Yuri said while giving the other cup of coffee to Ryosuke who is sitting quietly at the bench of the hospital garden.
"Arigatou."
"Uhn." the little one sit beside him at the bench and they simultaneously take a sip from there coffee cup. The warmth of the coffee is just perfect to calm the atmosphere event just a bit. Just like anyone of us nobody can surpass that phase in life where you need to undergo mental chaos and emotional stability. It happens to all of us some may handle it well but most of the time it's one of the hardest thing to do, to keep on living while losing yourself on the process.
"It's not your fault at all." Yuri said.
Ryosuke smile lightly when he heard Yuri trying to console his feelings, "Of course I know that. It's just that... I can't forget everything that he said about his sister." the ichigo lover saddened.
"There are people who's happy and able to smile because of your books. And I think she passed away... having no regrets." Yuri said which Ryosuke find confusing. " She look up on you as an inspiration. After being rejected many times, it didn't stop her from trying again. She has the power to move on because she understand that it's a part of the process, and she learned that thing through your books. She looked up on you as her personal cheerleader."
Ryosuke smirk lightly before saying anything, "When i got into that accident earlier... you were there crying. It reminded me of an old memory. I felt a thug on my heart while looking at your face and my chest throbbed painfully because I've realize that i made you cry again - I'm sorry. " the ichigo lover stand up and move away from Yuri, head lie low, his shoulders, by just looking from the back look tired and exhausted. "After everything... I don't even know if i can still go back to being me in the past, after ruining someone else life and for making you cry , I don't think I can go back." Ryosuke voice out his true feelings.
"No!" Yuri is on the verge of breaking apart when he heard Ryosuke conveyed such remorse. "Go back to the way you were... Talking nonstop, easy smiling, honest and always faithful to yourself. Go back to being the warm-hearted Ryosuke that you are."
"Yuri?"
"My first encounter with you during the late winter season, it put me in such chaos. I don't like you being around because I thought that you were just a bother. The past few weeks I wished that you'd just leave me alone because I'm hurting so badly. But even how much i try to push you away you still insisted to stay." tears cascaded down on both corners of his eyes while trying to remain composed. But no matter how much he try to act strong he couldn't hold it, it's just too much to bear. "I thought that you're only doing all of these to console me in favor to your late brother. I thought you're helping me out of pity." - " I have no confidence... so I hid away my feelings because i don't want you to misunderstood." Yuri cried.
"I like you."
Ryosuke gaped as he stare at Yuri with tears freely flowing from his eyes. Hearing that three magical word from Yuri, he started to feel sentimental. He walk slowly towards where Yuri is standing in. Perplex by that sudden confession Ryosuke try to absorb each words, he try to let the moment sink in to him even deep inside his thoughts begins to muddled up. The ichigo lover reached the back of Yuri's head and caresses him gently while his other hand encircled that small figure while pulling him closer. Yuri could feel the warmth of his palm from the way he caresses his head, not minding if his hair get mess up.
"I've been waiting for you to say that..."
And without further ado, Ryosuke sealed all the doubts and fear with a kiss. Yuri slowly closes his eyes while being swayed by that magical moment. If they could only stop the clock from tickling. If this story is a fairytale this should settle as the finale where the protagonist together with his lover lives happily ever after. But this is no fairytale, not fictional either and happy endings after being kissed was mainstream. Reality is always unpredictable but moreover it is something worthy than any other things. They broke the kiss after few seconds and Ryosuke look at Yuri right in the eyes before giving him a magical kiss on the forehead followed by a gentle yet tight embrace. <3
To be continued...
A/N: Horray! Feelings conveyed! Horray! after so many twisted chapters... finally I've decided to make them face this stage. This part of the story is one of the most awaited part yet one of the crucial and exciting part for me. I know everyone loves YamaChine to become canon since I've been putting too much restriction because it's not yet the right time for it. But i really planned this to be this long before the confession of feelings. I'm following my drafts but there were times when an idea or scene intervines and the supposedly next scenes gets move to the next chapter (something like that.) hahaha. I'm still thinking if it's already time to end the story once I arrived at chapter 20 or continue further. What do you think minna-sama?
Anyway, I apologize for any typos, wrong grammars and other flaws. Critics are well-appreciated. Comments are always love. I love reading your comments even though i don't reply to them i'm reading them. And it's a very big motivation for me to continue writing this story. Thank you minna-sama. I hope you like this update. See you on the next chapter. Ciao ^_^