Fanfic: Four Seasons; Autumn Change
Title: Autumn Change
Author: audcline
Pairing: YamaChii
Genre: Angst,comfort
Summary: Yuri felt unloved as if everyone who come his way just betrayed him and left him broken. Ryosuke felt like he's nothing and think as if he's not worth for anything.
A/N: Chinen Yuri Birthday Fic *sorry for being late*
What comes along when one season change is the mere fact that there's a certain feeling that is also changing. It is not like the previous feeling is need to be forgotten but it's more likely you are obligated to make a transition of feelings for your own good... For you not to get hurt...for you to find someone new who'll eventually soothe your heart and heal you. One guy after another, and in the end Yuri end up being betrayed, being the loser in the game they called LOVE. As the season goes by and the leaves of the trees get withered by, so as with the feelings that Yuri is trying to bear.
Sitting down at the bench near the platform. Waiting for the next train to arrive. All alone...by myself...
"Samishii yo"
Every bit of the moment hurts. The cold wind that touches my bare skin as if they we're spikes continuously striking every part of my body. My eyes we're swollen but tears won't stop no matter how i tried to hold back.
"I-itai yo"
All my life, i've been waiting for someone to come along who'll stand by my side when my knees feel numb, but nobody stayed...everyone left. And the more that i think about all those heartbreaks i could feel the pain...this unbearable weight inside my chest.
"D-dareka...tasukete..."
That pain is just too much...too much that it leads him fainted.
~**~
"Fallen in love they said... What do i know about such thing? Never in my whole 20 years felt such. Thorn between studies and family and give space to my peers and some strangers i think they' weighted too much."
"They're just too much..."
As i stand on the other side of the platform and blow a deep sigh of disappointment i suddenly felt the urge to look straight. At the other side of the platform, where nobody can be seen aside from a petite yet good looking guy who's sitting on the bench in pain...he caught my whole attention as if my world was all his. I can see it from the distance, those painful expressions written all over him. He's curdling in pain as if he's trying to bear something... As the fierce wind blew, accompanied by the crimson red leaves scattered all over the place he lifted his head a little and i saw a glimpse of tormented world.
"He's in pain...in deep pain."
Right infront of my eyes i saw a whole new world. A world where i suddenly feel something inside my head and inside my chest. A sudden change of my heart beat which i thought was an abnormality. Funny how i thought i'm just sick but no... I am not sick...not at all. I wonder who is this person?
"Kami-sama... Who is he? Why do i feel like i must stand by his side... As if it's the right time? "
My eyes didn't leave his figure and no matter how cold and fierce the wind blows it didn't distract me from following his thoughts. I felt like seeing an angel... with a broken wing. How can i help him if i'm just an ordinary lad who's life defines nothingness. In my entire life i tried my best not to stick my nose into someone else life but...
"...Today is different..."
Without any second thought...I decided to but in...just now. And run myself to the other side of the platform.
~**~
In my dream i saw myself lying down with someone else lap. It was one autumn season and as i slowly open my eyes i saw the brightness of the sun in between those crimson red maple leaves which are slowly dancing as it reach the ground. I never felt such tranquillity before since the feelings that is always raging inside me are those morbid and tormented thoughts and feelings given by those people who i loved so much but didn't love me back. Just by thinking of it i can't stop myself from shedding another session of tears...but before those tears drip down on the corner of my cheeks...someone dried them with an instant. A very warm hand touches my face, and he caresses my head with his gentle touch. I wanted to cry not because i'm badly hurt but because... It's the first time i felt someone else kindness...my shivering hand touches his hand.
"Arigatou..."
Butting in into someone else life has never been my forte. As much as possible i want to run away from all the problems and just live my life alone. But how come this kind of feeling is so much different. Lying down in my lap while sleeping how can this moment be so magical. The train arrived but i thought of not waking him up ... How selfish i am. But i want to stay here longer... Just this time. And then i saw tears at the corner of his eyes. I wipe them before it drip down to his cheeks. And while staring at him i saw how beautiful he was.
"Hajimemashite... I am Yamada Ryosuke."
...
...
...
...
"Yuri Chinen...my name is Yuri Chinen."
He slowly open his eyes and realized that it wasn't a dream. That horrifying pain disappeared and a sudden curve on his face showed up. And so with Ryosuke, he smiled back as he slightly scratches his head because of embarrassment. They stayed in that spot for a little longer without saying any other words. It was a complete silence but they doesn't mind at all. They just feel like they are away from the real world...like the time is in favor of them.
"There are many of them who'll come your way and everyone will surely make a difference. Some may hurt you, some may betrayed you and some may love you. But on your way, you must accept that not everyone that you meet on your path will stay...they will leave but someone else will come. And you might not know that after the rain pours a very beautiful rainbow will appear. And make a big difference in your life."
FIN.
A/N: It is actually my birthday fic for Chinen. It's better late than never deshou? Haha. No proof reading so my apologies for all the errors. *hides* I am glad coz i am starting to get back into writing again though it might not be as much as you expect it, but i feel relieve just by knowing that their are people who's still reading my fics. Thank you so much. Comments are love, critics are always appreciated.
Author: audcline
Pairing: YamaChii
Genre: Angst,comfort
Summary: Yuri felt unloved as if everyone who come his way just betrayed him and left him broken. Ryosuke felt like he's nothing and think as if he's not worth for anything.
A/N: Chinen Yuri Birthday Fic *sorry for being late*
What comes along when one season change is the mere fact that there's a certain feeling that is also changing. It is not like the previous feeling is need to be forgotten but it's more likely you are obligated to make a transition of feelings for your own good... For you not to get hurt...for you to find someone new who'll eventually soothe your heart and heal you. One guy after another, and in the end Yuri end up being betrayed, being the loser in the game they called LOVE. As the season goes by and the leaves of the trees get withered by, so as with the feelings that Yuri is trying to bear.
Sitting down at the bench near the platform. Waiting for the next train to arrive. All alone...by myself...
"Samishii yo"
Every bit of the moment hurts. The cold wind that touches my bare skin as if they we're spikes continuously striking every part of my body. My eyes we're swollen but tears won't stop no matter how i tried to hold back.
"I-itai yo"
All my life, i've been waiting for someone to come along who'll stand by my side when my knees feel numb, but nobody stayed...everyone left. And the more that i think about all those heartbreaks i could feel the pain...this unbearable weight inside my chest.
"D-dareka...tasukete..."
That pain is just too much...too much that it leads him fainted.
~**~
"Fallen in love they said... What do i know about such thing? Never in my whole 20 years felt such. Thorn between studies and family and give space to my peers and some strangers i think they' weighted too much."
"They're just too much..."
As i stand on the other side of the platform and blow a deep sigh of disappointment i suddenly felt the urge to look straight. At the other side of the platform, where nobody can be seen aside from a petite yet good looking guy who's sitting on the bench in pain...he caught my whole attention as if my world was all his. I can see it from the distance, those painful expressions written all over him. He's curdling in pain as if he's trying to bear something... As the fierce wind blew, accompanied by the crimson red leaves scattered all over the place he lifted his head a little and i saw a glimpse of tormented world.
"He's in pain...in deep pain."
Right infront of my eyes i saw a whole new world. A world where i suddenly feel something inside my head and inside my chest. A sudden change of my heart beat which i thought was an abnormality. Funny how i thought i'm just sick but no... I am not sick...not at all. I wonder who is this person?
"Kami-sama... Who is he? Why do i feel like i must stand by his side... As if it's the right time? "
My eyes didn't leave his figure and no matter how cold and fierce the wind blows it didn't distract me from following his thoughts. I felt like seeing an angel... with a broken wing. How can i help him if i'm just an ordinary lad who's life defines nothingness. In my entire life i tried my best not to stick my nose into someone else life but...
"...Today is different..."
Without any second thought...I decided to but in...just now. And run myself to the other side of the platform.
~**~
In my dream i saw myself lying down with someone else lap. It was one autumn season and as i slowly open my eyes i saw the brightness of the sun in between those crimson red maple leaves which are slowly dancing as it reach the ground. I never felt such tranquillity before since the feelings that is always raging inside me are those morbid and tormented thoughts and feelings given by those people who i loved so much but didn't love me back. Just by thinking of it i can't stop myself from shedding another session of tears...but before those tears drip down on the corner of my cheeks...someone dried them with an instant. A very warm hand touches my face, and he caresses my head with his gentle touch. I wanted to cry not because i'm badly hurt but because... It's the first time i felt someone else kindness...my shivering hand touches his hand.
"Arigatou..."
Butting in into someone else life has never been my forte. As much as possible i want to run away from all the problems and just live my life alone. But how come this kind of feeling is so much different. Lying down in my lap while sleeping how can this moment be so magical. The train arrived but i thought of not waking him up ... How selfish i am. But i want to stay here longer... Just this time. And then i saw tears at the corner of his eyes. I wipe them before it drip down to his cheeks. And while staring at him i saw how beautiful he was.
"Hajimemashite... I am Yamada Ryosuke."
...
...
...
...
"Yuri Chinen...my name is Yuri Chinen."
He slowly open his eyes and realized that it wasn't a dream. That horrifying pain disappeared and a sudden curve on his face showed up. And so with Ryosuke, he smiled back as he slightly scratches his head because of embarrassment. They stayed in that spot for a little longer without saying any other words. It was a complete silence but they doesn't mind at all. They just feel like they are away from the real world...like the time is in favor of them.
"There are many of them who'll come your way and everyone will surely make a difference. Some may hurt you, some may betrayed you and some may love you. But on your way, you must accept that not everyone that you meet on your path will stay...they will leave but someone else will come. And you might not know that after the rain pours a very beautiful rainbow will appear. And make a big difference in your life."
FIN.
A/N: It is actually my birthday fic for Chinen. It's better late than never deshou? Haha. No proof reading so my apologies for all the errors. *hides* I am glad coz i am starting to get back into writing again though it might not be as much as you expect it, but i feel relieve just by knowing that their are people who's still reading my fics. Thank you so much. Comments are love, critics are always appreciated.