[Fanfic] #011 Drabbles - Pretence
The person who cares first, lose first.
Whenever this bus stopped at this particular stop, my heart would tend to jump; but pride was building little barriers around, preventing it from showing the obvious. You would always be sitting at the empty seat beside me and I would always be gazing at the scenery outside, pretending that I didn’t care. I’d seen your face once or twice in the past but in the days after, I’d try not to acknowledge your presence too much. Although I might not be facing you, but your aura told me that you were you - the person who’s sitting beside me was… you.
Sometimes I could feel that you’re watching me, sometimes I could feel that you’re hinting me to look at you, sometimes I could feel the signals in your body language and sometimes we were just pretending. Oh, I’ve forgotten - we were always pretending. This warfare on our pride was long, nobody was willing to give in; nobody was willing to confess. Nobody.
That night was of no difference like the other nights. We were going home, we were sitting together and we were still pretending. Pretending we didn’t realise each other’s existence, pretending we were just pure strangers and pretending nothing’s being processed in our brains and hearts. I detested this pretence. The bus jerked out of a sudden and the both of us were thrown toward the front. We looked at each other with our eyes fairly widened and you put up with an awkward smile.
“The traffic tonight is heavy, isn’t it?”
“Yeah.” I replied with a faint smile hanging.
Still pretending, we tried to bring ourselves back and faced the front.
You coughed once.
Silence was about half-brewed.
Twice.
Silence was about to fill up the atmosphere but you broke in again.
“By looking at this traffic currently, I don’t think we will be reaching our homes on time?”
I nodded.
“So why don’t we use this time to introduce ourselves?”
Unconvinced by my hearing, I turned to you and asked for your pardon.
“I’m Lee Donghae.” You smiled with a pair sparkling eyes. “You?”
Donghae, if you didn’t stop your pretence, I wonder when I will be stopping mine.
Whenever this bus stopped at this particular stop, my heart would tend to jump; but pride was building little barriers around, preventing it from showing the obvious. You would always be sitting at the empty seat beside me and I would always be gazing at the scenery outside, pretending that I didn’t care. I’d seen your face once or twice in the past but in the days after, I’d try not to acknowledge your presence too much. Although I might not be facing you, but your aura told me that you were you - the person who’s sitting beside me was… you.
Sometimes I could feel that you’re watching me, sometimes I could feel that you’re hinting me to look at you, sometimes I could feel the signals in your body language and sometimes we were just pretending. Oh, I’ve forgotten - we were always pretending. This warfare on our pride was long, nobody was willing to give in; nobody was willing to confess. Nobody.
That night was of no difference like the other nights. We were going home, we were sitting together and we were still pretending. Pretending we didn’t realise each other’s existence, pretending we were just pure strangers and pretending nothing’s being processed in our brains and hearts. I detested this pretence. The bus jerked out of a sudden and the both of us were thrown toward the front. We looked at each other with our eyes fairly widened and you put up with an awkward smile.
“The traffic tonight is heavy, isn’t it?”
“Yeah.” I replied with a faint smile hanging.
Still pretending, we tried to bring ourselves back and faced the front.
You coughed once.
Silence was about half-brewed.
Twice.
Silence was about to fill up the atmosphere but you broke in again.
“By looking at this traffic currently, I don’t think we will be reaching our homes on time?”
I nodded.
“So why don’t we use this time to introduce ourselves?”
Unconvinced by my hearing, I turned to you and asked for your pardon.
“I’m Lee Donghae.” You smiled with a pair sparkling eyes. “You?”
Donghae, if you didn’t stop your pretence, I wonder when I will be stopping mine.