head fuckery
i just took a nap
and i dreamt, which is usual when i take afternoon naps
and i dreamt i came home for x-mas
and when i woke up and found i wasn't at home...well...that made me rather sad.
it's strange, because i'm excited for x-mas. gonna go skiing, meet some new people, help that's beijing, hopefully get some connections.
but, this is the third dream i've had where i came home for christmas. it's starting to bug me. maybe they're premanatory for next year. who knows.
either way, it's bummed me out and made me not want to go to the gym. i've been spending alot of time trying to relax this past week, and one of the side effects of that is i haven't been gymming as much as i should. i'll justify it by saying i REALLY need to wash my gym clothes tonight, but i need to get back on my schedule.
also, i'm going to the pharmacy later tonight to see if i can find some kind of medicine that will help me sleep. just sick to death of this not being able to wake up for class thing. if i've only got three weeks left as a student, i really want to enjoy it!
also, only 3 weeks left? holy crapsors!
a good time was had last night. started chilling in sooins room around 4, had a great time with mr gao. he got me a christmas gift to match the calligraphy brush he gave me last year. it's a stamp with my chinese name carved in it, and nicest of all is he carved it himself. that's awesome.
then i was off to sanlitun to advertise for tbj ski jam. sooin, inga and jacob came with me, altho i don't think they quite realized how much it would include me talking to lots of other people and having to be jumping around the room every now and again.
and i got hit on by 3 different guys! which is really cool, because i didn't think i was looking that good.
nice to know even as a big ole pudger i'm still pretty.
and yet, i came home single. not that there weren't pretty boys talking to me, not that there wasn't freshly shaved legs and clean, roomate free room....just...didn't want to get a new boy. i found myself standing in the bar thinking "i'll just go ask him if i can kiss him" then thinkng "nah. i don't think i really want to"
i just don't know myself anymore! since when does aubri turn down kisses and hugs?
i had a day off today. i liked it. i'm going to move my saturday meeting to sunday, accept that it's one less class i can teach, and enjoy having nothign to do on saturdays, completely guilt free.
also, i either remember or dreamt my roomate came rushing into my room crying yesterday, and it seems vaguely real, but i don't think it was. i think she said her vietnamese friends were no friends at all...i'm not sure...i don't think it really happened because i cna't really think of what i did in responce. poor girl has been having one helluva life recently. her gramma died and her parents never even told her she was sick. then her purse got stolen, and just, not goodness. i wanna have a pizza day with her soon, and need to buy some stockng stuffers for our christmas.
and i dreamt, which is usual when i take afternoon naps
and i dreamt i came home for x-mas
and when i woke up and found i wasn't at home...well...that made me rather sad.
it's strange, because i'm excited for x-mas. gonna go skiing, meet some new people, help that's beijing, hopefully get some connections.
but, this is the third dream i've had where i came home for christmas. it's starting to bug me. maybe they're premanatory for next year. who knows.
either way, it's bummed me out and made me not want to go to the gym. i've been spending alot of time trying to relax this past week, and one of the side effects of that is i haven't been gymming as much as i should. i'll justify it by saying i REALLY need to wash my gym clothes tonight, but i need to get back on my schedule.
also, i'm going to the pharmacy later tonight to see if i can find some kind of medicine that will help me sleep. just sick to death of this not being able to wake up for class thing. if i've only got three weeks left as a student, i really want to enjoy it!
also, only 3 weeks left? holy crapsors!
a good time was had last night. started chilling in sooins room around 4, had a great time with mr gao. he got me a christmas gift to match the calligraphy brush he gave me last year. it's a stamp with my chinese name carved in it, and nicest of all is he carved it himself. that's awesome.
then i was off to sanlitun to advertise for tbj ski jam. sooin, inga and jacob came with me, altho i don't think they quite realized how much it would include me talking to lots of other people and having to be jumping around the room every now and again.
and i got hit on by 3 different guys! which is really cool, because i didn't think i was looking that good.
nice to know even as a big ole pudger i'm still pretty.
and yet, i came home single. not that there weren't pretty boys talking to me, not that there wasn't freshly shaved legs and clean, roomate free room....just...didn't want to get a new boy. i found myself standing in the bar thinking "i'll just go ask him if i can kiss him" then thinkng "nah. i don't think i really want to"
i just don't know myself anymore! since when does aubri turn down kisses and hugs?
i had a day off today. i liked it. i'm going to move my saturday meeting to sunday, accept that it's one less class i can teach, and enjoy having nothign to do on saturdays, completely guilt free.
also, i either remember or dreamt my roomate came rushing into my room crying yesterday, and it seems vaguely real, but i don't think it was. i think she said her vietnamese friends were no friends at all...i'm not sure...i don't think it really happened because i cna't really think of what i did in responce. poor girl has been having one helluva life recently. her gramma died and her parents never even told her she was sick. then her purse got stolen, and just, not goodness. i wanna have a pizza day with her soon, and need to buy some stockng stuffers for our christmas.