I Know That You Need Him, Baby Take It Easy. {Chapter 7}
Title: I Know That You Need Him, Baby Take It Easy. [Chapter 7]
Rating: PG-ish again
Disclaimer: Nothing here is mine, but the plot...
Gabe
Who the hell is banging on my door? At ….. where is the clock… 8:00… At 8:00 I the damned morning?
“Gabey! open up!” bang bang bang. “Gabe please…” I hear William plead. William!?
Shit. I was up as soon as I realized who exactly was doing the banging. At once I was at my feet. “Coming… I’m coming…” I yell at a swing the door open.
“Oh Gabe.” He practically fell into my arms. “I need you right now…”
“Uh, ok. Alright love. I’m here.” I give him a kiss on the forehead and lead him from the door frame and in towards the bed.
“What happened, love?” The last few minutes have had a sobering effect. I am awake, and all my attention was on the pretty thing now laying next to me.
“Oh… Gabe… I don’t know. I don’t even know what is going on anymore… I feel so lost, and I didn’t have anyone to turn to…”
“Alright, alright… slow down…” I wrap him into my arms and I can feel him shaking, tremoring actually. “Will baby, you got to calm down. I don’t even know what happened to you. If you want me to help I need to know what is going on.”
He let out a long sigh. “I know. It’s just so hard… so hard to tell you…” Another sigh. “He hit me”
“What? He hit you? He who?”
“My… boyfriend…”
“Your boyfriend? You do have a boyfriend…” My heart drops a little. I had a feeling, but I put it aside. I hoped with all my heart that it wouldn’t be true.
“Uh-huh… I’m sorry Gabey.”
“It would have been nice for you to tell me…” I want William, but I want him for myself.
“I know. I’m sorry, but the whole thing is complicated.” He was pulling nervously at the hem of the sheets. “And I don’t even know what I am doing anymore. I don’t know what I want anymore” My heart is aching, I feel selfish for being so miserable about being used. Right now William needs me as a confidant, but it hurts thinking that I don’t mean as much to him as someone else does.
“I thought you wanted me…” Shit. That slipped out.
“But I do… the way you make me feel remarkable, like nothing I have ever felt before. I just don’t feel that with him. In fact he won’t let anyone know we are together… and he has been hiding me for over a year…it hurts…” Oh God… I am selfish.
“Oh. Bill. Anyone who doesn’t hold you on a pedestal doesn’t deserve you.” I brush the hair from his eyes, and what is revealed is a pair of sad brown eyes. “You are too special to let any man make you feel so wretched.” He reaches his lips to mine and gives a soft kiss.
“You make me feel special.” The warmth started to creep back into his smile. “I love the way you make me feel.”
“I love the way you make me feel too Will…” I do love you, but there is no way for me to tell you this now… “So anywho; Who is the guy?”
I instantly feel him tense. That couldn’t be good.
“Uh… well… I. I am… I don’t know … how to tell you…” I shift and turn to look at him fully. I have a feeling I should brace myself. He holds a long pause, and sighs. “Well… me and Travis; we aren’t roommates. It’s a little more than that…”
Huh. Travis. What! What? “What!? Are you fucking kidding me? Travis?” My head starts to spin. There is no way… It… This has to be a joke…
“I’m sorry… I wanted to tell you, I was too afraid too say something… because…”
“Because what William? Because you didn’t want me to know I was fucking my best friend’s man… or that you don’t care about either of our emotions?” Frustration is making my vision hazy. I am so lost; I may be horrible, but I still want William, even If I had to share him. With my best friend? Fuck. What is this boy doing to me?
“I do care…” the response was sheepish, hardly audible.
“I know. I understand, kind of. This is a lot of info to process here. I apologize for over-reacting.” I reach my arms around him and squeeze him.
“It’s not your fault. I’m the loser. But I never wanted to hurt you.” The sad eyes fill with tears. “I just want to feel loved… actually loved…”
“Will, you are so special; and I want to show you all the love in the world…” My face feels wet, and it takes me a second to realize that I have been crying too. Crying at the thought of William being sad, of the thought of not having a chance with him. “… and I still want you. I know it’s wrong, but I can’t help it. I want you, I need you.”
“I need you too Gabey…” He cranes his neck up and lands his lips to mine. When he pulls back he flashes the trademark smile. I can’t help but smile back. Something about holding William this close to me, it feels so right. I’m so sorry Travis.